Forever Goodbye.

 I looked back on us today, and I honestly don’t know why I missed you, and why I wanted you back. Sure, at the beginning we were kids rushing into things we had no idea what about, but slowly, instead of trusting you more, I trusted you less, and the more I loved you, the less I loved myself. But now I’m free, and I’m not sorry. I had to get out. I knew it was over long before you said it. And I thought you broke my heart, but you merely made it stronger, made it resilient. Of course I’ll never forget you, but there’s no way I’m ever going back. So goodbye, my first love. Thank you for being such a fabulous waste of time.

KL Trip (2)

It's been so long ..

that I haven't see Genting Faceeee !

Haloo blog, 我又回来了，刚才打开相机，才发现原来我还有很多照片都还没有放进电脑，所以刚才放进电脑的同时，我就顺便upload上来blog，然后写一下我的part2，这一篇应该是最多照片的，整个trip下来只有去云顶还有去草莓园才有拍到比较多的照片。

这是我在等缆车的时候，一个小丑送给我的。可是上到云顶好像就破了。

*On the way* 我们隔了几年才再去回云顶，我记得几年前，要做缆车的时候我爸爸讲不要怕，结果这次去的时候，我爸爸跟我讲他怕。哈哈然后轮到我跟他讲不要怕哦。哈哈

一大早，起身了就去吃早餐，然后大概9点左右就上云顶。我也忘记到底驾了多久才到达云顶，因为我一直在睡觉，然后到了云顶之后本来是要去户外玩，可是我们到了酒店，太多人在等check in，然后去排队等到来弄到来，都已经2点多，等到我们都很累了，所以我们就会酒店睡觉先，连午餐都没有吃。我们睡醒了就去吃MCD。

*finally gentinggggg. im here! *

然后大概4点多，我们就买了室内的票，因为那时候打算第二天早上才去户外玩。室内的东西是没什么好玩啦。

室内的游戏很少，可是要排队排很久，然后那时候又是假期，而且是接近圣诞节了，人超多的。

光是排那个虫虫车，都排队排了1个小时多，而且那个虫又很慢，等到我都很想睡觉了。

现在看会这张照片，真的有点后悔没有去户外玩游戏，因为我很想玩这个游戏啊!

然后晚上就去吃海南鸡饭，每一间餐厅的人都多到恐怖，海南鸡饭的也是多，可是吃鸡饭应该比较快吧？

吃完晚餐就在里面走走看看，然后晚上是比较漂亮。

我很喜欢那些灯，很多颜色很漂亮。

I love this the most ！

 我想要好好拍一张只是那个圣诞老人还有merry Christmas的摆设都拍不到，因为真的太多人了，每个人都要去拍zz ignore the family please. :D

之后也是12点多久回去酒店睡觉了。

然后第二天早上，就去吃了早餐，看起来好像很多东西吃，可是没什么合胃口，所以我的早餐就很普通，然后吃完早餐已经10点了，本来打算去买户外的票，可是爸爸讲12点左右就要下去了，因为我们要赶去Kuantan。所以讨论到最后我们也是没去户外，就留在室内，然后去玩游戏那边，玩一下游戏就下山了。




Ma breakkkiieee -__-



Thats all about my genting two days one night. End this post w this cute uhmm worm? and me standing beside it. I hope I look cute ok. :)

I planned to write more, and write about the genting strawberry farm, but im sorry peepo, I got test tomorrow, and I just got back from school, will be going to Lavender's place tonight, and study for the test, I know it sounds weird, why can't I study at home? haha sure can study at home, but the feeling of #foreveralone is not that good, so we, me and lavender also hate the feeling of #foreveralone so ... yeah. OK best of luck to me :D although its just a small test but I don't want to failed also.
Me gotta bath now. kthnxbye.:D and miss you my bloggg

I'm sorry

Have you ever wondered about the things we tell ourselves before we fall asleep? 


I whisper the words in the dark, telling myself that I am happy, or that he's happy, that people will change their minds. I persuade myself that I can live without the people who have left. Each night before I fall asleep I lie to myself in a desperate hope that come morning, it will all be true.

The first step may be the hardest part but I think I can make it through. I am dealing with this every day and night, please give me the strength. Let me survive. Let me become stronger and stronger each time. 

You took half year or maybe less than that to moved on.. what about me? I don't know. I hope that as time passes by, I'l be fine, be alright, get used to it, maybe it'll take another 1 year or more than that... I don't know... 

Happy Birthday BBC.

Happy Birthday to Bubu Chan :D

A little surprise for him last night. 

The only two photos we took last night. -__-

kinda rush.

Haha alright, may all your dreams come true, and May this year be your best ever!

No more emo ok, this little boy emo all the timessss -__-

End of Jan.

Sorry for not updating my blog. It's so dead now. How's your CNY peepo? uhm, my CNY? Nothing much, really nothing much, cause things changed a lots, I mean people around me, almost my everything has changed, friendship and him. Things that happened recently really stretching my strength to its very end, it's so hard, it's too heavy for me. It's killing me inside whenever I think about it. But I can't do anything, I just have to accept it, I'm accepting it now, I am. I wasn't ok, but I have to be ok, no choice, no one is going to fix me this time, I gotta stay strong and fix  myself this time. It was super hard, seriously, I can't handle it, I almost die, and I rather die than fixing all these by myself. You won't and never know how much it hurts me, how much you hurted me. You won't and you'll never know, just how much. I've learnt that, maybe it's true that, it's not about what I want, it's about what you want. You chose this way, and although it hurts me like fuck, I still willing to let you have what you want. I hope you're and you'll and you must be happy with what you've got now. Baby you don't deserve to be sad. I don't wish anything bad for you. I don't deserve the sad either, but I'll let you have what you want. Because I love you.I'm not stupid I'm just blinded? I am totally lost this time, lost and lose. Remember me as the one that protected you from getting hurt, remember me as the one that is always and will always be there for you ok. I am facing all these alone, I gotta deal with all these alone, it kills me.

jy.

.When you're around someone so much, for so long, they become a part of you,
and when they change or go away, you don't know who you are without them.