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KL Trip (2)

2012-02-09T01:51:00.000-08:00

It's been so long ..

that I haven't see Genting Faceeee !

Haloo blog, 我又回来了，刚才打开相机，才发现原来我还有很多照片都还没有放进电脑，所以刚才放进电脑的同时，我就顺便upload上来blog，然后写一下我的part2，这一篇应该是最多照片的，整个trip下来只有去云顶还有去草莓园才有拍到比较多的照片。

这是我在等缆车的时候，一个小丑送给我的。可是上到云顶好像就破了。

*On the way* 我们隔了几年才再去回云顶，我记得几年前，要做缆车的时候我爸爸讲不要怕，结果这次去的时候，我爸爸跟我讲他怕。哈哈然后轮到我跟他讲不要怕哦。哈哈

一大早，起身了就去吃早餐，然后大概9点左右就上云顶。我也忘记到底驾了多久才到达云顶，因为我一直在睡觉，然后到了云顶之后本来是要去户外玩，可是我们到了酒店，太多人在等check in，然后去排队等到来弄到来，都已经2点多，等到我们都很累了，所以我们就会酒店睡觉先，连午餐都没有吃。我们睡醒了就去吃MCD。

*finally gentinggggg. im here! *

然后大概4点多，我们就买了室内的票，因为那时候打算第二天早上才去户外玩。室内的东西是没什么好玩啦。

室内的游戏很少，可是要排队排很久，然后那时候又是假期，而且是接近圣诞节了，人超多的。

光是排那个虫虫车，都排队排了1个小时多，而且那个虫又很慢，等到我都很想睡觉了。

现在看会这张照片，真的有点后悔没有去户外玩游戏，因为我很想玩这个游戏啊!

然后晚上就去吃海南鸡饭，每一间餐厅的人都多到恐怖，海南鸡饭的也是多，可是吃鸡饭应该比较快吧？

吃完晚餐就在里面走走看看，然后晚上是比较漂亮。

我很喜欢那些灯，很多颜色很漂亮。

I love this the most ！

我想要好好拍一张只是那个圣诞老人还有merry Christmas的摆设都拍不到，因为真的太多人了，每个人都要去拍zz ignore the family please. :D

之后也是12点多久回去酒店睡觉了。

然后第二天早上，就去吃了早餐，看起来好像很多东西吃，可是没什么合胃口，所以我的早餐就很普通，然后吃完早餐已经10点了，本来打算去买户外的票，可是爸爸讲12点左右就要下去了，因为我们要赶去Kuantan。所以讨论到最后我们也是没去户外，就留在室内，然后去玩游戏那边，玩一下游戏就下山了。

Ma breakkkiieee -__-

Thats all about my genting two days one night. End this post w this cute uhmm worm? and me standing beside it. I hope I look cute ok. :)

I planned to write more, and write about the genting strawberry farm, but im sorry peepo, I got test tomorrow, and I just got back from school, will be going to Lavender's place tonight, and study for the test, I know it sounds weird, why can't I study at home? haha sure can study at home, but the feeling of #foreveralone is not that good, so we, me and lavender also hate the feeling of #foreveralone so ... yeah. OK best of luck to me :D although its just a small test but I don't want to failed also.
Me gotta bath now. kthnxbye.:D and miss you my bloggg

I'm sorry

2012-02-05T20:44:00.000-08:00

Have you ever wondered about the things we tell ourselves before we fall asleep?

I whisper the words in the dark, telling myself that I am happy, or that he's happy, that people will change their minds. I persuade myself that I can live without the people who have left. Each night before I fall asleep I lie to myself in a desperate hope that come morning, it will all be true.

The first step may be the hardest part but I think I can make it through. I am dealing with this every day and night, please give me the strength. Let me survive. Let me become stronger and stronger each time.

You took half year or maybe less than that to moved on.. what about me? I don't know. I hope that as time passes by, I'l be fine, be alright, get used to it, maybe it'll take another 1 year or more than that... I don't know...

Happy Birthday BBC.

2012-02-03T23:35:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to Bubu Chan :D

A little surprise for him last night.

The only two photos we took last night. -__-

kinda rush.

Haha alright, may all your dreams come true, and May this year be your best ever!

No more emo ok, this little boy emo all the timessss -__-

End of Jan.

2012-01-31T01:52:00.000-08:00

Sorry for not updating my blog. It's so dead now. How's your CNY peepo? uhm, my CNY? Nothing much, really nothing much, cause things changed a lots, I mean people around me, almost my everything has changed, friendship and him. Things that happened recently really stretching my strength to its very end, it's so hard, it's too heavy for me. It's killing me inside whenever I think about it. But I can't do anything, I just have to accept it, I'm accepting it now, I am. I wasn't ok, but I have to be ok, no choice, no one is going to fix me this time, I gotta stay strong and fix myself this time. It was super hard, seriously, I can't handle it, I almost die, and I rather die than fixing all these by myself. You won't and never know how much it hurts me, how much you hurted me. You won't and you'll never know, just how much. I've learnt that, maybe it's true that, it's not about what I want, it's about what you want. You chose this way, and although it hurts me like fuck, I still willing to let you have what you want. I hope you're and you'll and you must be happy with what you've got now. Baby you don't deserve to be sad. I don't wish anything bad for you. I don't deserve the sad either, but I'll let you have what you want. Because I love you.I'm not stupid I'm just blinded? I am totally lost this time, lost and lose. Remember me as the one that protected you from getting hurt, remember me as the one that is always and will always be there for you ok. I am facing all these alone, I gotta deal with all these alone, it kills me.

jy.

2012-01-23T05:18:00.000-08:00

.When you're around someone so much, for so long, they become a part of you,
and when they change or go away, you don't know who you are without them.

#heart sayings 7

2012-01-21T19:16:00.000-08:00

I gave you all of me, knowing that you could and you will someday walk away from me, and leave me alone again. But I still fought for you, fought w you. I tolerated your attitude, your rudeness, your whatever bullshits. All because I don't want you to get hurt again. I can choose not do so, I can just turn around and walk away from you. But hell I can't do this. I know you know what we had. Why would you let me, the one that protected your heart, went through all these shits things alone. But am not blaming you, since this is my choice. Just like what I told you before. And right now, let me go through what you went through, trust me. Just let me.

#heart sayings 6

2012-01-18T03:13:00.001-08:00

i've gotta stop doing this to myself. there must be reasons behind why he's acting this way, but honestly, i'm not sure if it's worth it to find out. i don't know if it's worth opening myself up again, letting him in... just to see what's been there all along. honestly, i'm scared to death of what i'll find. i'm scared of rejection and maybe, just maybe, i'm scared of what we could be.

2012-01-18T03:01:00.000-08:00

just wanna feel okay again. everything that's happened lately has been stretching my strength to it's very ends. i don't know how much longer i can hold on. i feel like i'm drowning, literally. i've been fighting this current for so long and i have been fighting desperately to stay at the surface.

oh you think that you know me?

2012-01-17T05:35:00.001-08:00

If you've ever tried to fight tears on the bus ride home, and failed.
If you've ever lied about why your eyes were glazed over, and you were believed.
This one's for you.
If you've ever stopped listening to your favorite band because he liked them too.
If you've ever hated a girl you didn't know because he picked her over you.
This one's for you.
If you've ever wished you were weak enough to cry in public.
If you've ever constantly hid behind laughter and smiles.
This one's for you.
If you've ever bit your lip to stop it from quivering.
If you've ever walked with your eyes planted on the ground.
This one's for you.
If you've ever stared into the darkness before sleep, trying to avoid the 'what's if's' and 'if only's'.
If you've ever listened to totally different music, but ended up thinking about him anyway.
This one's for you.
The girl who doesn't get the guy.
The girl who still lives her life to the fullest she can.
The girl who gets up every day and doesn't give up.
This one's for you,
because it takes so much to be that strong.

You're still a part of everything I do

2012-01-17T05:24:00.001-08:00

It’s waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets & feeling the heat of the person next to you. You turn around & see them in their most peaceful, innocent, & vulnerable state. They breathe as though the weight of the world lies on anyone's shoulder but their own. You smile & kiss their face gently before turning back around & somehow, an involuntary grin forms on your face. Just before you drift off to sleep, you feel an arm wrap around your waist & you know.

#heart sayings 5

2012-01-16T05:31:00.000-08:00

I like how a smile never leaves my face when were together.
I like the way you tickle me because you know how much i love to laugh,
I like how you give me big hugs spontaneously just because you know how much i love them.
I like how things are between us.

#heart sayings 4

2012-01-14T02:13:00.000-08:00

It's almost 2 years.

For me, for you.

I thought I did changed, but hell no.

I didn't change. I'm still the girl who sits around and laughs at dumb things and walks with the biggest smile on my face.

This time, Im sorry.

2011 KL (1)

2012-01-13T02:01:00.000-08:00

我知道我知道, 真的有点迟, 我已经差不多要忘记我去年年尾的假期了, 可是刚才看回所有的照片, 我又记起来了, 还是选择要写, 因为过多几个星期, 我就应该是忘记完了. 现在突然很有心情, 因为我在听, 开心乐龙龙! 突然觉得今年的新年好像没什么气氛, 可是从前几天开始已经有人开始在放烟花了, 我那天跟lavender讲, 今年的新年应该会比去年更热闹, 更多烟花看吧? 哈哈, 还有不到10天就农历新年了! 很开心, 可是有些朋友都没有在.

关于我的假期, 我没有去什么特别的地方, 就只是去了西马, 短短的十天, 可是每天都很累, 还有, 10天里面我们去了4个地方, 大港-爸爸的家乡, 云顶, 关丹, 巴生. 本来是有跟亲戚计划我们关丹回去的时候, 就下吉隆坡逛街一天, 可是结果在关丹的时候, 爸爸突然决定在那边留多一天, 所以就取消了下吉隆坡. :(

起飞咯! 我从上飞机就一直睡到下飞机. 我也不知道为什么, 那天的气候好像很不好, 因为肥记一直摇, 我睡一下醒一下..

下飞机了, 亲戚来载我们, 然后我们就赶下去巴生吃肉骨茶, 去到的时候已经3点了, 很饿-__-本来听爸爸讲是要去另外一间, 可是好像没有开还是什么, 所以我们去了直落玻璃肉骨茶.

很好吃哦! 然后吃完之后我发现这个!

宪哥也去过! 是真的很好吃, 本来打算要再去多一次, 可是十天的时间真的很短, 去到这里就去不到那里, 所以到最后就没有去了.

之后吃完了, 就去bukit tinggi的一间mall逛街, 本来是讲要下timesquare, 可是时间不够, 所以就讲去bukit tinggi那边. 之后大概6点多7点就驾车回去sungai besar, 爸爸的kampung. -__-

第二天早上睡醒, 如果没有记错好像是吃鱼啊饭啊菜啊, 在西马的每一天, 早餐好像晚餐, 每天早上都是饱到我要飞~

然后这个嘛, 就是我不懂如何解释, 可是在我爸爸的kampung里面, 姓佘的就是这个, 然后有其他的姓黄姓蔡姓陈的, 全部都不一样, 可是我没有拍到照片. 姓佘的, 也就是我们, 在整个kampung里面只有3家而已. 我本来以为会有更多, 可是走完了整个村, 发现只有3家人姓佘.

第二天, 我们就在家休息一天, 因为第三天我们要上云顶. 可是第二天爸爸就带我们去吃了那边满出名的laksa, 冰, rojak, 还有一个我们是叫lala jiang, 可是我不懂华语是什么. 可是很好吃哟!

这个他们叫摇摇冰.

其实在那边的生活也很不错, 那个地方小小, 比斗湖还要小. 每天早上起身就是喝咖啡, 然后做在外面, 讲话, 不然就是看下报纸, 不能看电视, 因为我的堂妹每天都咋看喜洋洋与灰太狼. 他们真的可以从早上看到晚上, 也看不闷, 我真的不知道那些羊跟那只狼有什么吸引的地方, 可以让那些小孩子看不停-__-

那边的空气, 环境, 全部都很好, 很舒服.

那边的花, 我不知道为什么好像凋谢到很快, 我好像早上8点那样看到他们就有一点也好开始凋谢了, 然后有时候接近下午就会看到美美的花在开花-__-

美好的两天就这样过去了, 第三天就上云顶了!

#heart sayings 3

2012-01-12T06:28:00.001-08:00

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...

#heart sayings 2

2012-01-10T03:56:00.001-08:00

You just waltzed back in my life like you deserved to be here or something. You could have come back anytime, anytime before now. But you waited and waited. And you know what? It's too late. I kept waiting for you to come back, and you didn't. You never came back, until now. Anytime before now I would have welcomed you back with open ...arms. But you're too late this time. I gave you more than enough chances to make things right and you didn't. I opened myself up to get cut wide open. I finally moved on. I'm happy and I don't need you anymore. That's something I never though I'd say. I'm sorry if I'm not ready to throw all of that away to let you back in and make me look like a fool when you fuck my felings over Again. I cant put myself through that again. You cant erase the past. The way we are now, is not my fault. I didn't cheat, lie, or push you away. You did this to yourself. I'm sorry if you cant find anyone who amounts to me, which you proba...bly won't, but it's your own doing. I'm not saying this out of spite or pity or anger even. I'm saying this because I know that no girl will ever amount to what I was for you, what you were for me. No girl will ever connect and feel for you the way I did. Maybe that same will go for me. There's never going to be another guy that is just like you, who loved me like you did. But I'm ready to move on, to experience what else is out there. I cant put myself through what you did to me again. I need change. If we're meant to be, we'll find each other again one day and maybe I'm fall madly in love with you again, just like before. If not, I really hope you find happiness in the decisions you made, because God knows I would never have chosen this for us. But I also cant fix what you created, and I don't want to anymore.

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2012-01-09T23:42:00.000-08:00

Im really so tired, my eyes keep tearing now, wtf, but I still sit at here, hearing ma new favorite song - Suavemente to keep myself awake because I want to blog, and also cheer up myself, and I'm alone in da house so hearing these kind of songs I think can temporary let me feel like Im not that alone. #whatever #bullshit :P

I've been so busy lately, I always wanted to blog, but really too busy, going here and there and ask for the uni details la, then going here and there to search for living place in KL, and going here and there to ask for he courses, the foundation thingy. But!! all those going here and there asking this and that also useless liao la now, cause im now studying in ISM. Yes, ISM. -__- Why? Because, they suddenly change their mind, they say very dangerous if im going there alone, and no friends stay at the same condo w me, and they heard about too many scary news, and they say Im a girl, so they're so worry, too worry, so they say stay at twu first, after 1.5 years, then that time you grow up a bit liao, mature a bit liao, and then that time you can take care yourself liao, you just go there study. Because of this, I emo liao like 2 days -__-

So today, was my very first day study at ISM, and then actually I was so nervous lo, I don't know why. Haha, then actually me and Lavender dated for breakfast today, but then this morning, she didn't drive, then ok lo, that time I saw my neighbour was going out also, Jason fetch him, then I say can I follow? haha, then ofcourse ok la. :D Then we breakfast 1st, after breakfast just go school. Class started at 815. Then lunch break, 1215 - 0115, went to soto cause suddenly craving for it. Haha. ok then class ended at 215 :( fml, still got homework. :(

#heart sayings 1

2012-01-07T00:28:00.001-08:00

You know what your problem is? You get attached, fast. And once you're attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy. It's never been about what you want, it's always everyone's needs before your own. You give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage of you, and you become a pushover. But you're okay with that, because they're in your life and that's all you ever really wanted. And even if they screw you over, you'll still be there for them. Because that's you, that who you are. Once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there. And that is why it's so hard for you to let him go.

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2012-01-04T04:35:00.000-08:00

已经这样过了6天, 朋友开学的开学了, 我每天还是像现在这样好像很得空, 可是其实我也没有很得空, 我也不知道我在讲什么. 哈哈, 我每天早上10点起身, 然后11点吃早餐, 然后下午看连续剧, 然后晚上跟朋友出去一下, 然后回到家12点, 然后就睡觉, 这几天的生活都是这样.

前几天我还有去了一个英文的考试, 本来是想在还没有去读书之前, 拿几个学英文的课程, 学一下英文, 然后才出去读书, 可是之后我打算早一点出去读书了, 不要等到七月, 可是这一切都还在planning中, 这几天又要继续忙了, 等下就要去升学中心问details, 如果ok就今天报名的咯. 然后如果还有时间就可能会去fukpak的家.

我选择3月出去读书也不知道会不会太早, 哎呀可是早一点读迟一点读, 都是一样的啦, 都是要读, 就早一点去咯, 不然每天留在家里也不知道要做什么, 我想先做几个月的工, 可是我爸爸妈妈都不赞成, 他们讲你要做工, 你怕没有的做啊, 以后才来讲, 现在可以读书就读书先.

我妈妈是很怕我去做工了, 然后我就会没有心读书了. 我也不知道啦, 哈哈.

我其实很怕咯, 我刚才回到家, 我就跟我爸爸讲要带我去做一个bank的户口, 他就问为什么这么快, 我就讲, 我可能打算三月就出去读书了, 我本来是跟他讲我7月, 他一听到我这样讲, 他本来在看报纸, 他就stop了, 他就问我报名了啊? 要去哪里读书? 然后又问, 你有没有朋友一起去, 你找到住的地方没有? 爸爸比我还紧张. 然后我就跟他讲我可能住朋友那边, 因为那边还有房间, 然后我跟他讲可能去学校是要走路, 或则是坐taxi, 然后他就讲不可以走路的, 自己一个人很危险的.

我爸爸比我还要紧张一万倍, 然后他就开始在想我读书的地方靠近哪里啊, 附近时哪里啊, 住哪里比较没有这么危险啊, 我看到他们酱我又有一点不舍得, 可是我的uncle就跟我爸爸妈妈讲, 孩子大了, 也是要放手让他们去成长的, 不可以一直都是保护着他们, 这样他们哪里会长大..

每个人都是这样讲, 可是我不知道我爸爸妈妈到底怎样想. 给他们时间啦, 第一次一定是这样的, 第一次女儿长大了要出去读书了, 心情一定是不知道怎样的, 其实没有很大件事, 他们也是很担心很担心, 我还没有要出国, 如果出国我看他们可以不用睡觉的咯.

那天看到小弟弟小妹妹在讲他们的upsr, 他们讲今年的考试很多次啊, 书本作业很多啊, 我就觉得haih, 我也想回去upsr. 现在我在选学校, 我也是很烦, 我也是不知道会不会选错.

好啦, 我现在要出去了. byebye, I will be back soon.

fuck the last day of the year

2011-12-30T23:42:00.000-08:00

Hellu, Im back ! Miss me anot?

So, today is the last day of the year, last Saturday. Tomorrow is 2012. Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right. 2012, please be good to me. Love you.

I just back from vacation, wanted to blog yesterday but fuck that fever, keep annoying me for like 3 days -__- #fml. Fever, Y U NO go away? but thanks god, Im 80% recover now. Still got a little bit flu, but no problem, I think I still can tahan :D Its the last day of the year, I've been waiting for so long, sure cannot let this little flu spoil my night la. But really thanks god :)

I got many to blog, uhm about my vacation, but wait first ok, cannot do so much things now, if not I'll be sick again, then I will spend my night on my bed sweet bed. -__- I will write about it next year.

But since today is the last day of 2011, how can I not blog something right? So ok, let's talk about today, the worst day ever, last day of the year still so sucks. I couldn't believe it.

So this morning, after I woke up, then im really craving for sang nyuk mian, cause didn't eat that for like er almost half month, so I texted Lavender to breakfast, then she say ok ah but need to wait cause she's waiting a maid. Ok lo, then I go to brush teeth 1st, then after I back to my room, received her msg again, she said ok I come now. I was like ?!?! now? then she say yes now.

Then the moment I stepped in to her car, she start complaint to me about a maid, hahahaha, she complaint that she woke up so early then she say the maid dated at 9pm, then ok lo, at Taman Semarak, then Lavender go out at 845 something, cause she really don't know Taman Semarak at where, haha don't laugh, although we're twu ren, we also don't know lo. I also don't know. But she's so brave, she don't really where is the place, but she still can drive alone to there and wait the maid. OK! SO when she arrived Taman Semarak, then she called to the maid, but is her daughter picked up the phone, then she say what her mum not at home la, then say again her mum is on the way back to home la? Then Lavender was like, what you want now?! Then she told her daughter, I will be back later at 11 to fetch your mum ok, please ask her to be on time.

Ok then we start breakfast lo, but then her phone keep rang rang rang -__- is the maid, then so funny lo, Lavender told her we now eating, we will back later to fetch you, and then we ask her to wait us at some store. Then she say SHE DON'T WANT!! Like wtf?? She say because its too far away -__- Then bo bian la, what to do, she say she don't want liao, so we say ok, later we arrive there liao you teach us how to go your home ok. Then after that we both also no appetite to eat liao don't know why.

Then we started our find maid journey. Ok la, Taman Semarak is not too far, but we didn't go there before, that's the problem. Before we going, I remember I tweeted this :

The ' ok so now we going to taman semarak to find a maid. Fml bless us ok! It's the first time we go there' Then after I tweeted this, Elaine tweet me and say god bless both of you hahaha. Me and Lavender were like .... how.... then the funniest part start now!

We finally arrived Taman Semarak then we say we're at the store there, so where are you now? Then she ask us to keep on going till the very end, and then you will saw a moutain. Then we follow lo, keep on going but then we didn't saw any moutain. then how? then we call her again she say what she already waiting us at the roadside? and she's now at stesen bus? but there's no stesen bus and no any bus there... Then we both are like two lost kids :(

Then we parking beside a stall and we ask the worker there help us to talk w the maid, and ask her where is she la, and ask her to go la yada yada. ok then finally ok liao. the worker teach us how to go, then she also say what keep on going no need to turn left or right, just keep on going, then ok lo. WE KEEP ON GOING NO TURN LEFT NO TURN RIGHT. Then keep on going til almost the world end, then omg, no roads anymore, but we still couldn't saw a person waiting us. Then call to her again and ask, then we tell her we at where then she say., 'ko pigi atas sana sudahkah?' oi, what is atas sana??? You say keep on going don't turn left don't turn right oh. then now you say what?

Then we go back to just now that stall, then ask ask ask, then they tell us need to belok kanan -__- We both really so spechless, why just now you say no need to turn left no need to right? but then now you say want to belok kanan? #wtf.

Then we go again, this time belok kanan, then we keep on going keep on going, cause the maid say no need to turn, she keep say no need to turn but actually need to turn one lo, and she say what got moutain, but we couldn't find any moutain. but thanks god, we found some uncle, then we ask them how to go to bus stesen. then finally this time we got it right, we found the maid finally.

And then sent her her working place, ok so I thought our mission complete liao. but who know, the maid say she don't want to stay home de, she just can work part time. then ok lo, mei you ban fa, she say she will help us to find another maid, then we need to sent her back again. Then this time really so #wtf again, we thought we can put her at stesen bus there but who know she ask us to sent her back home. -__- You ok or not oh. we wasted half hour more to find you, and we keep stuck at there, then lastly found you, but then you cannot work, then now you ask us to sent you bcak to your home.

Me and lavender really speechless, and we really can kill a person at that moment liao. but sui bian la, the last day of the year -__- help her lo. Haih. what a day :'( im so ko lian now. 1st im having flu, then 2nd wasted almost 2 hours for this find maid job haih.

This is all about my last day of 2011. Anyway, tonight will be good good night. Happy New Year eve peepo. !! Im going to countdown at the same place, hmm, with a bunch of friends :D Have FUN!

I guess this is life.

2011-12-16T05:21:00.001-08:00

I don’t understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change but the people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you’d do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without. How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives just because it’s easier than working things out.

I should have known all these.

2011-12-15T20:41:00.000-08:00

If he still sees the beauty in you and still falls more in love with you after seeing your weird facial expressions, your unusual laugh, your constant complaining, your ugly days, your pig out days, the way you toss and turn in your sleep, your stupid jokes, the way you ask questions about the thing you should already know the answers to but he answers them anyway, your obsession with strange things, your random sounds, and your immaturity. Then you already know that this is the boy.

Fight for myself.

2011-12-15T04:21:00.001-08:00

You know that feeling when you’re just waiting, waiting to get home into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day, that feeling of both relief and desperation? Nothing is wrong, but nothing is right either, and you’re tired, tired of everything, tired of nothing, and you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay, but no one’s going to be there, and you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting, tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else, tired of being strong, and for once, you just want it to be easy, to be simple, to be helped, to be saved, but you know you won’t be, but you’re still hoping and you’re still wishing and you’re still staying strong and fighting with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.

short and little

2011-12-11T06:55:00.001-08:00

So it's just a very short post, that's why I name this post ' short and little ' .

#1.
People change. Time’s moving. Years go by, and I’m not the same girl you used to know.
: because everytime I flashed back things and I do feel so. Idk it's good or bad.

#2.
You reach a point in your life where you see the real from the fake, you realize that sometimes, people really do come in your life for a few seasons but beyond that, there is no place in your life for them. You realize who’s there for you, and who is by your side just to fulfill their needs. You figure out who your true friends are. So if you don’t hear it from me, just know that we both had a part in this, sometimes people drift apart, sometimes what you considered a true friendship, was never cherished as a friendship by the other. It’s life, but don’t waste your time surrounding yourself around people who don’t value you in their life.
: and yes, it's still about friends, and friendship.

#3.
I’m tired of people saying that they want me in their life. I need to hear somebody say that they NEED me in their life. That they can’t live without me no matter how bad things get.
: still, about love and relationship. Annoying me all the time, idk why is it so hard to get an answer.

Last, christmas is coming.

To love and be loved, that is something I wish for this coming christmas. =)

#Love.

2011-12-10T05:32:00.001-08:00

Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect him to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect him to calm you down when you’re yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, utterly defeated when something doesn’t exactly match up with all your plans. But that’s the thing. Love isn’t a plan. It doesn’t have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it.

Love is so incredibly messy. People around you can’t comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can’t see. They can’t see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you’re in love. It’s inconvenient and painful and devastating at times, but we can’t live without it. What you don’t learn is how hard love is. How much work it takes. How much of ourselves we have to put into it. How it isn’t worth it until we are complete and utter idiots about it.

Love isn’t him calming you down when you yell. It’s him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and to keep you grounded. It isn’t him bringing you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear more presentable.

It’s after a long fight, that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet him showing up at your door the next morning anyway. It’s not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. So no, it’s not her caressing your hair and telling you that everything’s going to be alright. It’s him standing there, admitting he’s just as scared as you are. You have to remember that with love, you’re not the only one involved. You’ve unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another person’s hand and said “here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat. Or forget I ever handed it to you. As long as you have it.”

It makes us crazy. It makes us invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn’t cross. Because love isn’t about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. It’s about scaring the crap out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it. And it’s a lot better than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of difference between feeling ‘happy’ and feeling whole.

Life is a challenge, and so is love. Things never come easy in life; if they do, memories are rare, suffering won’t get you through the tough times, there’s nothing to look back on. There’s no mistakes that you learn from. In the end, it’s all worth it.

Its Over.

2011-12-07T03:42:00.001-08:00

现在, 7:42pm, 刚吃完晚餐, 一个人坐在床上一边听歌, 一边写blog. 过多一个小时, 我就要和tingtingseng见面了!! 我昨天晚上, 我真的一整晚都在跟她skype, 名句精华也只是读过而已, 完全没有去背, 那时候已经觉得最后一科了, 哈哈, 结果今天的名句精华, 填充那个我不会做. -__- 而且, 华语真的很难, 先考paper2, 我做完了的概述跟第一个理解文, 我看时钟, 只剩下一个小时, 我快要吓死了, 因为后面大概还有一题理解文, 一题文言文, 一题诗歌, 还有几题的名句精华. 然后我就快点写快点写, 做完之后我看一下时间还剩下大概10分钟. :) 考完之后, 就跟lavender到附近的茶店和一杯茶. -__- 然后我顿时觉得我们好像有点老了, 我们竟然去茶店喝一杯茶.

之后11点回到去学校, 准备考作文, 一开始我还在担心作文会不会很难写, 还是我看到了题目, 然后完全想不到东西, 然后我不会写, 可是我一翻开考卷, 我看到题目的时候, 我真的是松了一口气. 因为题目是"毕业钟声响了", 我很开心, 因为至少我知道我可以写什么, 应该是很多人都写那一题吧, 可是晓赖说她选"吃苦", 我不知道吃苦要怎么写. 本来我想写"家有一老, 如有一宝" 可是想了一下, 我还是决定写毕业那题. 因为考完这张考卷, 我就是毕业了!

我写了好多, 三面纸, 没有空行, 在写的当下, 我很享受, 因为就好像是把自己从中一到中五的所有事情全部回忆一次. 真的想起很多的事情, 我记得我有写, "还记得我踏进中一那天, 仿佛就像是昨天才刚发生的事情". 是真的, 我还记得我第一天踏进巴华中学. 我的中学生涯其实, 我不懂怎么说, 就很像一半一半, 如果我没有转校, 我看我可以写更多, 我会有更多的感触, 因为跟同一班朋友每天一起在学校, 相处五年. 可是我转学了, 要重新认识新朋友真的很难, 而且去年真的, 对我来说真的不是很开心的一年. 今年, 至少比较好, 好很多了. 虽然在这间新的学校没有多少个是真正的好朋友, 可是我觉得这样也够了.

我还记得我有写"12岁那年听到的毕业钟声是开心的, 因为终于要上中学了, 校服由深蓝色变成浅蓝色, 可是现在的毕业钟声响起, 我没有想象中的开心, 反而是很舍不得". 是真的, 虽然我没有真正听到毕业钟声, 可是, 我在写的时候, 我就在想, 这篇作文, 应该是我中学生涯的最后一篇的华语作文了, 我应该是没有再写华语作文的机会了, 有也只是用电脑写blog而已. 想到的时候真的, 是真的有不舍得.

以前看着大过我的学长学姐考spm, 然后毕业离开学校, 那时候真的很期待, 我考spm, 我毕业我离开学校的那天. 可是今天到了, 我昨晚还跟爸爸讲我今天是最后一天考试了, 我还问他"爸, 你有没有什么感想, 你每一年看着别人的孩子考spm, 今年终于轮到你的女儿考了, 现在她要考完了, 你有什么感想吗? 结果我爸爸讲, 没有感想因为不是他考. 哈哈

我真的很多感想哦, 我真的很舍不得, 虽然我也不知道我舍不得什么, 以前一直期待了这么久的毕业, 现在终于到了, 结果我竟然舍不得?! 哈哈, 可是我觉得应该大部分的人和我一样, 到了这个时候一定会舍不得. 以前我觉得校园生活, 中学生活真的快点过完最好, 可是今天在写作文的时候, 我就觉得, 其实校园生活中学生活真的很美好. 至少真的可以什么都不用烦, 每天起身就是去学校上课放学回家补习做功课. 每一天都是这样很好. 可是现在毕业了, 我不用再每天去学校, 不用上周会, 不用每次讨厌小考大考, 不用每次讨厌小假期过后的开学了. 我好像也没有多喜欢, 我只要一想到明年, 一想到我还没有去看学校, 还没有决定到底要读哪里, 我就真的很asdfghjkl.

今天写的作文, 我真的没有想过我会写这么多, 最后算字的时候, 我都是大概大概, 然后随便写一个数目下去. 要考试之前, 我看到晓赖, 我还跟晓赖讲, 这次是最后一次写作文了, 把你的做作level用完yo, 哈哈. 她的吃苦作文应该是会有很多做作的东西在里面. 哈哈, 见面的时候再详细问她的情形. 然后我问到ernest的时候, 他就讲和我写一样的题目, 然后他就讲"har, 酱你的作文一定是被我的比下去咯?" 我真的是很讨厌他.

然后还有前几天, 考account的时候, 我出来了, 然后看到他, 他就问我有没有imbang, 我就讲有啦, 然后他竟然讲"it's impossible." -__- asdfghjkl 考eko的时候也是很骄傲, 第六题很难, 然后很多人不会做, 然后出了考场我就跟他讲我不会哦, 怎么办, 然后他就讲没有关系啦, 也是很多人不会, 然后我就以为他不会再讲什么了, 结果, 我就问他, 你会不会? 他就讲我当然会啦, 因为我是神. -_-
but, 这个就是他, 上次有一个星期我们没有考试, 然后没有见面, 然后我们在facebook的inbox刚好有聊天, 然后他就突然讲了一个很好笑, 真的很好笑的东西, 然后我就跟他讲'我真的很想念你哦." 然后他自己就讲, 想念我是应该的 -___-

我今天考完试, 然后走出学校, 然后跟朋友讲byebye的时候, 真的有点不知道什么感觉, 就觉得大家以后也不能每天见面, 然后还有一个朋友就是要回去kk了, 然后我就觉得真的很舍不得. 然后回家的路上, 我跟lavender讲, 其实真的很舍不得啦, 因为不能每天见面了, 以前是见面见到很sien, 可是现在反而觉得, 还是天天见面比较好.

I found something so meaningful and sharing is caring :) so hehe

Let's face it... we've changed. We all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting, we've all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken, friends diminished, new love started and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all of our time in our circle of friends, we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We've changed -- some for the better, some for the worse. Some of us are finding love and others are trying to let go. Even though we've changed, we all know that even though we're all finding our own place in the world, that when we find out love, when we let go of a love, when the tears fall, or the happy smile spreads across our face... we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens, nothing will ever change so much to the point that we're not all friends forever

still, I want to write more, but Im so tired today. will blog again soon. I mean real soon :)

*The only photo taken during SPM. Goodbye school, goodbye school uniform! :3

less than 20 hours.

2011-12-06T05:00:00.001-08:00

Can't believe that my SPM is going to end soon, real soon, less than 20 hours from now. I still remember the very first day of SPM. And now, tomorrow is the last subjects, last 2 papers. -- Chinese. Still, best of luck to me and every candidates.

I can't study anymore, I really don't have the mood to study for 名句精华 -__- Im sorry, but I will try it again later, I will try my best to at least study for err one hour. I hope I can do it, it's the last subject already. Although is the last subject, but still, can't play play, needa take it serious ok :)

I guess I'll be screaming the whole day tomorrow, haha can someone help me to cover up my mouth? haha, alright, I think tingting will slap me. And yessss finally shes back to this town sweet town. Just finish calling her, and I can feel that we really so close already. heiyer 你这个猪。

Alright I think its time to start study already. goodbye

im feeling so fly like a G6

2011-12-04T01:25:00.001-08:00

So when it comes to December, its all about putting everything into the memory box, and let the sad things keep forever inside the box, and the happy memories put inside the heart. December is all about parties, having fun, happiness, Countdown for X'mas and the most important is the New Year Eve. Seriously, I can't wait. I still got 3 more subjects to go, 6 papers. Best of luck jingyingsia! I know you can do it, 6 down, 3 to go now. It's just three more and you will be free for the next 4 months or more than that? Half year? Yeah whenever I think about it, its just 2 words. Holiday Rockssss! Im so fly like a G6 now. Haha :D

And what elseeee, Tingting Seng is coming back! My lovey dovey tingting. It's been 10 months, I didn't see your face, I really miss your face so much, and now your face is getting rounder and rounder hahahaha. I really can't wait to see you. I know you can't wait to see me too. Although we got skype sometimes, but you know the line is so meh, and I can't really see your face clearly. but Nevermind, you're coming back. you're coming back! Don't forget we promise each other to eat sang nyuk mian, chicken butt butt, soto, and this and that together! And maymay, bernard, labi, and nicole are coming back too. This year, we gonna spent our new year eve together again, just like last year. NYE Rockss!

And I swear this year, this year, 2011 NYE is the most happiest year ever. Although this year did happened a lots of shit things, but what so ever la, they all came into my life and teach me lesson, so yeah someone teach me to appreciate the lesson. Although these lessons cost so many tears, but its worth. Im now trying not to emo, its a little bit hard for me, but I think I can do it, because no one can help me, im #foreveralone. Haha, well I still have my sisters and brothers. and darlings. :)

That's enough.

Hahaha. -__-

Bye!

十二。

2011-12-02T03:03:00.001-08:00

我期待了很久的一个月，现在终于到了。今年的最后一个月了，我不期望什么特别的事情会发生，只要给我好好的，不再有什么突发的事情，我就够了，真的够了。上个月，发生了太多的事情，4个人，4件不同的事情，都让我很伤心。

一个月，4件事情，发生的时间点都很接近，真的是很wtf，我根本来不及接受，来不及适应，另外一件事情又发生。十一月的最后一天，我真的很伤心。我期待了这么久的一件事情，我原本以为来到年尾，一切事情就会好转，我原本以为我等了这么久，我会得到一些我想要，我期待的事情，可是到最后伤我最深。

我不知道为什么大家都要骗？还是因为我太笨，什么都去相信，I don't judge. 现在想回去，真的觉得为什么要这样对我，我到底哪里做错？为什么一下子，一瞬间，本来是属于我的东西，完全没有了，真的没有了，真的好像是在跟我开玩笑。昨天一切都还好好的，可是今天事情全部变样了，我真的想也想不到。

或许，算了吧，可能本来注定不是你的，就真的不是你的。给予太多的希望和期望，到最后只会像现在这样。也不能怪任何人，谁叫你自己这么容易相信？我不明白为什么我要只是一个解释，你都不能给我，你为什么选择逃避？

我更不明白你，你为什么？可以这样。你知道你对我来说，有多重要。你是不知道？还是你假装不知道？你就为什么要这样？我想了很久，到底以前我们都在坚持什么？明明一开始，我们彼此都应该知道，很难维持，可是为什么，你当初要给我那么大的信心。可是到头来，你的这些信心去哪里了？你曾经说过，if its meant to be, no matter what happen, fate will bring back us to each other. What goes around will definitely comes around.

那时候你让我感觉到，we are meant to be, just not the right timing. 我们选择等。可是半年了。我还是等不到我要的东西。

这几天我知道我说的东西让你也是很不好受，可是除了这样我真的不知道我还可以怎样发泄我的情绪。Sorry boy. 这几天你没离开过，你知道我最期待的事情是什么，我知道你有在努力希望可以不要再一次让我失望。可是对不起，这次，我决定，我不要相信了。

Hello Peepo

2011-11-18T20:25:00.001-08:00

Im back. Ze SPM candidates, how was the exam? Ngehheheh. Some people say it's easy. I don't know la but At least I try my best for the past 4 subjects. Bm, BI, Sejarah and also ze Maths. 4 down, 5 to go. Best of luck to me and all the candidates. :)

The night before SPM I , err actually really can't sleep well, I slept at 1130 something, then wake up at 3 something, because I'm kinda scare and nervous I can't wake up at the right timing. Haha how stupid. and then I sleep back again, and wake up at 630. Then breakfast @Sang nyuk mian. Kick start my day w that super yummy gon lao mee. And then start my exam at 8am end at 1030am. After that friends come school to fetch me and bring me to lunch, sent me home to bath and take a rest and then they sent me back to school at 130pm. Start my another paper at 2pm end at 415pm.

I thought after Malay, I can have a good rest and good sleep that night, but some fucking things happen that night, I was about to my sleep then suddenly everything spoil the mood and then I can't sleep. okay I know, it's SPM, wtf I am doing that night, I should sleep early that night, and I can't let anything spoil my mood. So that night I sleep at 12 and then the next day I still need to wake up at fucking 6 am. so wtf. And sit for the exam, I choose question number 3 : The best things in life are free. Yeah its free la ofcz, like happiness, joy, love ... and ... all are free one ma.

After BI then is Sejarah, the night before the real exam, I was like fucking nervous at home, many things running in mind, and I need to stop my myself from thinking it. Thank you. I finally stop asking why, how could you be like this asdfghjkl, how why how why because I know as long as you are happy, I will get through all these shits things. The night, I study till 12 again. ahd yeah ofcz the next day I still need to wake up at fucking 6am AGAIN. I feel like vomit every morning after my breakfast.

Then the 4th day is Math, the night before exam I actually plan to do some exercise or what, but end up I fall asleep at 8pm. HAHAhaha. and wake up at 630 that morning. This week is totally a sleepless week. I can see dark circle become more and more dark, look like a panda already. Nevermind it's SPM, I take it seriously I don't play play :D teehee

We don't have exam on Friday, so went to secret recipe w Lavender. and then after that went to her bf's home to sing for awhile. back home at 10.

Something to share :)

Good bye, see you again.

#badthings

2011-11-05T02:36:00.000-07:00

I am on tumblr now, and keep reblog-ing. Sometimes I felt that tumblr is much more better than blogspot, because sometime I can't even find any word to describe how I felt. SPM is just 9 more days, 9 more days only. Friend asked me did I prepared well for the exam? I answer I don't know. :/ My target is to get 6A, but then now I think I can't really reach my target. And last friday, was the last friday we study at school, we won't have any Friday class anymore. The last period was Sejarah, before we back home, teacher say ' today is the last day we have our sejarah lesson, and then she wish us all the best and good luck in our SPM. ' I felt so :/

These few days, I don't really have the mood. I don't know what's going on right now. Everything everyone is treating like F*. Sometimes I wonder why I keep asking myself not to care about you girls thing, but then I still care. I still mad everytime I think about it. I just don't know why... do you remember how sad you were last time?

Voilaa November

2011-11-01T02:19:00.000-07:00

不知不觉就这样进入十一月，今年的最后两个月了。
现在的心情真的是又紧张又开心又伤心，很复杂的心情。
紧张就是因为SPM还剩下13天而已，pray for me.
开心是因为还有13天我就要结束我的high school life already! and then 我明年不用一月3号开学
伤心是因为要拿成绩单了，我真的很担心我的国语作文会不会离题，我不想又再一次不credit
我的心情真的是很复杂很复杂 zz

上两个星期天，晓赖姐姐的baby满月，早上补完习，吃了早餐
我就去晓赖的家，因为要考数学了，所以去她的家温习
结果我一去到我们就在看baby，跟baby玩，然后玩电话
然后讲话，本来是打算1点开始我们的复习，结果吃了午餐，我们就出去帮baby买退烧的贴布
然后回到家弄一下东西就将近2点了，那时候我们才开始做复习
大概做到4点就停了。然后就去房间准备冲凉然后准备

This is the baby, name- Janus. So cute right. tsk tsk tsk

I look like I didn't open my eyes, but actually I did okay! haha Just my eyes are too small ed wtf.

Sisters.

The Three J , Jenny, Janet and baby Janus.

之后又继续我们的考试到25号。

然后上个星期三晚上我们去唱歌，考试之前最后一次唱歌了

下次唱歌应该是在考完SPM的当晚了。还有一个月 :(

那天我们五个人我，ernest，clinton，jacklim，还有晓赖

我们先去吃pizzahut，也是很久没有去吃pizza了

本来想要吃新的pizzza Chezzy7. 可是er很想在这里还没有有。所以我就点pepperoni Delight

Ernest was busying with his songs, he keep and keep and keep singing that night

we keep ask him to come and take a group photo with us

But he just don't want :(

大概9点那样就去唱歌，唱两个小时

因为第二天还有上课，所以就早回家，11点那样

我们已经plan好了，最后一天考试考到1点

然后我们就从下午出去到晚上！哈哈！

我现在想到都已经很开心，我一想到明年我不用开学我就真的真的很开心

到现在只是派了4,5份考卷

最开心的是我的eko，75/100 第一个A-

然后接下来就是华语B，Account就刚刚pass，然后Moral 55 --

这个星期应该会拿回所有的考卷了

and 今天终于拿到了spm的时间表
前几天老师一直不要派给我们，因为我们班每天都有人缺席
老师就讲等到我们全班人到齐了先，她才派给我们
到了今天，其实也是很多人没有来，可是她也是派了
老师讲下个星期要排spm的座位了，真的是很紧张哦oh my god =.=

okay la, I will update again when Im free :)
kthnx bye.

Last, November please be good to me. :) I hope everything will goes smooth this month.

Just Please . Love. xoxo.

Let’s go back to being strangers.

2011-10-29T04:57:00.000-07:00

Let’s go back to being strangers.
To a time before I knew your favorite things, your hopes and fears.
I wanna lose all the trust we built between us, and forget about all the secrets we told each other.
Of course when we become strangers again, you must forget everything about me, and I’ll do the same.
It’ll make things easier for the both of us, especially me.
Forget about how we met, what you first thought about me, and how we stay connected.
Why should we be strangers?
It’s because I’ve fallen into a dark place where the light can’t penetrate though.
My eyes are now watery, and tears constantly fall down my face.
I can’t even cry correctly because I lose my breath each time I shed a tear.
Is my heart broken?
Am I emotional?
Was it something you said or did?
I’m not even sure if this is worth crying over, and why I am crying so hard over it.
So let’s go back to being strangers and lets not even know the other person existed, because we were a little more happy before we knew each other right? :(

Copy from Tunblr. Tears just dropped while reading this.

It's been a really long time, I didn't being emo.

#day3

2011-10-14T00:05:00.000-07:00

Im so tired now, lying on bed, hearing to Therapy by All Time Low. heh :) Nice song.. Actually Im so tired right now, a little bit headache, but just couldn't fall asleep. 3 subjects done, still have 6 more subjects to go. uhh, kinda exhausted already.

So yesterday, BM, this time the schedule got a little bit changes, the past few times exam, we exam Paper 1 which is Essay first, and then just Paper 2, komsas part. But this time don't know why the school change the schedule, so we exam Paper 2 first, the paper 2 is so damn hard. Bina Ayat and peribahasa that part totally gg.com , and the novel there, I think gg.com also. Haha, I don't know how am I going to sit for SPM, it's just 31 days more. okay wtf really.

And the Paper 1, karangan that part, the bahagian A, write about ciri ciri about Warganegara yang baik, something like this, the worst pendahuluan ever. I bullshit so much @@ And then Part B, I actually want to choose question 2 peranan ibu bapa untuk make their children berjaya something that, but then I stuck at the last point, so I end up choosing question number 1, about way to membentuk jati diri, I think I got a lil bit out of tajuk. I don't know. Im so scared. What if my BM not credit again? wtf.

Then today sit for BI paper, the paper 2 for me it's still okay la, just the Novel part 'The Curse' gg la. hhaa :P I don't know the lesson that learned from there is what. ? hmm, anyway, just wtf. Then paper 1, another wtf again. Part A formal letter, before I end my letter, I forget to write Yours faithfully! I straight sign my name and write my name. The format marks gone again I think. And then Part B, the question 1 is to write a story starting w a costly lesson something like that, I actually want to choose that, but I don't know what to write at that moment, so I end up choosing question 2, someone that influenced me the most. HAha, the storyline is so meh. I don't want to talk about it. Haha.

wtf, Monday im going to sit for Moral paper and Chinese Paper 2. I still haven't start to memorize my definisi.
Wish me luck then, xoxos.

Song of the day , Therapy - All Time Low

Trial #day 1

2011-10-12T00:17:00.000-07:00

The 1st subject, Sejarah. GG.com , It's only the day 1 of my trial :( This time consider as no tips, so yeah, I just hope my sejarah can at least get a Pass? Oh well, I think this time is a little bit hard to get a Pass. wtf right. I start my revision 2 weeks before, but then uhmm, yeah I don't know wtf is going on with my mind. My mind is a mess. So my SPM will like this too? No please, NO no no... I don't want. I want my SPM at least got B hahaha, wtf I know is so funny, I don't think I will get B la. :(

And guess what? Last night I just update my status, call jacklim, ernest, xiaolai, pongpong, and clinton remember to bring IC this morning, but then I forget to bring. wtf wtf. Hahaha, I totally forget about IC that little blue color card. XiaoLai ask me, did you bring your IC before we heading to school, I say oh my god =.= Then she say I think nevermind one la, not SPM also, it's just a trial what. Then ok la, arrived school liao, then Ernest tell me, faster go back home to take your IC, if not you can't sit for the exam. I was like asdfghjkwtf. Ok then back to take, luckily exam start at 8'o clock.

Sejarah paper 1 is hard enough, and then I use 40 mins like that to finish it, then use 20 mins to sleep. Was too too too tired. And then the paper 2, question 1, 10%, question 2, I think got 50%, then question 3, 20%, question 4, hahaha 5%? and then the rest 3 essay question, i think 30% like that. damn damn damn. How could this happen? Why teacher lie us :(

Alright la, gotta study BM :(

bb .

Song of the day,

Dearest

2011-10-09T01:39:00.000-07:00

Im skyping w her just now, and damn! I really miss you so much! I think we didn't skype for almost one month, or maybe more than that. Both of us are really busy, she busy for her exam, and me too, busy for my forecast, and ze SPM. I truly feel so happy because even if we are not getting to see each other everyday, but we still can keep our friendship. Hehe :) Can't wait to see you really! Miss you so much so damn much.

October please be good.

2011-10-02T21:16:00.000-07:00

See, time pass really fast, omygodddd, the last 3 months in 2011 already, not kidding! after 3months, is 2012, and then Im 18, and then I finally graduate, and then I got selected for NS, ohno! Every time I think about NS I feel like the world is going to end soon, Im so scare, why Me? whyy! They say 27% out of 100% will get selected, and why am I so lucky? I still remember that night, 93627586692 people log into http://www.khidmatnegara.gov.my/ and the website is like super lagg, I can't even load the page. And then I ask Ernest to help me check, and then after 30 minutes like that, He finally call back me and say I got the result already. I helped 5 people to check today, and there's only one people get selected for NS. and then he ask me to guess who's that lucky person. I was like ohno, the 5 people that he help to check is himelf, Lim zheng yi, Xiao lai, Me and Charissa. He say me and lim zheng yi and xiao lai is "Maaf, anda tidak terpilih"

Then I say I hope is Charissa, not me, then he say ok let me announce the result, 940723-12-xxxx siajingying, 'Tahniah anda terpilih' , *stoned* whyy mee, I almost cry, but then I say I won't go for it ! I swear I will never go!

Ernest, bubu, jack lim, xiao lai and clinton all didn't give selected for NS, just me, why am I so lucky? and then the next day, I call to kelly them, hahahah! I was like you all are lucky too yea, because Qiqi , Chloe and Brenda all get selected for NS too ! hahaha, and they say if we all is in the same batch, and going to the same place, we all go ar, then I say I don't wantt, I can't stand for cold water, I can't. Don't ask me to try, I just can't.

So just forget about the NS first la, concentrate on study first, cause everytime I think about NS, my mood will turn very down. Cause they say got ghost la, got this la, got that la, so scaryy -.- ..

September... I ..

1. cut my hair , from this length

to this length, ok I know, it's funny, I don't know why I got the guts to cut till like this, in the past one year and 9 months, I never cut like this. Lavender accompany me go to cut hair that day, she say she actually want to cut it too, but then when we arrive the saloon, she tell me Im not going to cut yah hehehe.

Ernest say 你傻了是吗？

Sometimes I look at myself, I feel that this hairstyle is kinda funny .

I kinda miss my hair now :(

2. Happy Mooncake Festival

It's our first year celebrate mooncake festival together, not consider as celebrate la I think.We didn't play lantern and eat mooncake together. We just go to pu zhao shi and see performance, and uhm yeah just like this. Dinner @ Sakura Zen with XiaoLai before going to pu zhao shi.

The one and only photo that we took that night .

3. some random outings

Jason's birthday. Dinner at Perdana club before going to his birthday party. We bought a chocolate cake for him.

After that, they say go 山顶. I was like don't want la, I scare oh, they say don't stupid eh, not really is 山顶, later you will know it eh. And then they ask me to check in, I say here is where, they say check in to 我们的回忆, so disgusting. hahaha.

And then the next day, breakfast w XiaoLai and Lavender. @Taman Setia生肉面. after that went to sabindo, eastern plaza, and grace plaza to find casing, but end up we didn't buy any of them.

That's all for my September, I think October won't go out liao I really want to study hard liao, not kidding not kidding :P Hopefully this PMR little one week holiday I can finish my very lame and boring Sejarah revision. Not much time left, after this holiday, my trial is going to start, and after the trial, it's almost the end of October! And November 14 is the first day of 2011 SPM. wtffml :( ktnxbye

Keli 17th Birthday Dinner

2011-10-01T21:30:00.000-07:00

So after the making video night, me and Kelly slept at around 3am and then we woke up at 12pm the next day, and if it's not because keli's message, I think we two won't wake up that early. Haha, it's just so so so sleepy, I don't know why.

Kelly's mother prepared breakfast for us, and after breakfast, we went to town and print our photos, at first we plan just to print out all those photos and let keli arrange and put it inside the frame that we bought for her herself, but then Kelly say, don't want la, we help her arrange and put those photos inside the frame la.

So this is the frame that we bought for Keli. lovely right I know :P tsktsk

Around 2pm like that, kelly's friend Wilson come to fetch us, and then we went to town and find the shop, many of the shops didn't open because August 31 is National Day. But thanks god, still got some of the shops is still open. While waiting for the photos, we went to Big Apple for tea. It's my very first time tea at tawau Big Apple, at first I thought their donuts taste the same like in kk or kl, but then totally wrong la, I don't know why their donut's shape look bit weird, and the taste is just meh :S .

And then around 3 something, we went back to the shop and take our photos, and rush back to my home, then Kelly did all those arrange and put the photos into the frame job while waiting for me to bath. I think is around 4 like that, went to fetch qiqi, and then back to Kelly's home wait for her to bath.

And is kinda boring la at Kelly's home, so guess what? We watch the video again, ahhaha, just don't know why, we re-watch and re-watch and re-watch, again and again, non stop!

Around 7 like that, kelly's parents fetch the three of us to Dreamland, not a happy night at there, you know why, because their service is so bad, I don't know why a restaurant can treat their customers like that, hello? we pay the money one loh ok, not you pay for us one. Don't show us that face.

Chloe x Brenda

Chloe x Michelle

Chloe x Qiqi

Shan Hui x Chloe

Chloe x Kelly

My Brenda

My Darlin !

After the dinner, we went to Booze for the cut cake session.

Thats all :)
Love you heaps darling, looking forward to see you again :) Muacks !

making our little surprise for Chloe

2011-09-23T01:54:00.000-07:00

这个是在上个月所发生的事情, 拖到现在才来blog, 因为真的很没有时间, 本来想要不写, 可是想到不写的话, 以后我可能想不起来了, 所以还是选择写下来, 以后再看回去的时候就会有很多不同的心情~.

keli今年的生日, 她本来是没有打算要回来庆祝, 可是之后不知道为什么, 有一天她打来给我, 跟我讲她的生日她可能会回来庆祝. 听到她讲要回来庆祝, 我们也很开心啦, 因为今年就可能是大家最后一年全部聚在一起庆祝, 明年就应该没有什么机会了.

本来是没有要做video, 本来大家好像讨论到只是送一个相架, 然后里面就放我们的照片而已, 可是之后我就提议我们做video给她, 给她一个surprise, 然后全部人也都同意, 所以就这样进行了做video.

其实录video很简单而已, 我们本来是打算自己一个人录一段然后全部combine在一起, 可是之后发现很尴尬自己一个人在讲话, 所以就换成是全部人挤在一起, 然后一个一个轮流讲话, 这样好像没有那么尴尬, 我们只是录了一次就gao dim了, 我们讲话的video没有很长, 大概才1分钟多而已, 因为我们也不知道要讲什么, 本来还想要重新record, 可是最后就讲没有时间了, 因为我们record的那天是30号, 我们打算是在12点的时候放上去fb然后tag keli给她看, 所以我们下午4点多那样就record好了, 然后我就会kelly的家, 因为那晚我在她家过夜, 就是为了要做这个video.

我之前有做过一次, 可是那次做的video就只是把全部照片combine一起变成一个video, 所以其实很简单, 可是这次不是, 这次是要在video的开始先放keli的照片, 之后在中间就放我们的video, 然后video完了之后就放我们从form3一路以来的照片, 我本来以为应该不会难到哪里去, 结果我错了 TT.

我一开始要用我原本的programme来做video, 可是哪里知道我们record的那个video是rotate了, 然后我那个programme又不能rotate video, 所以我就上网下载, 之后rotate到了, 要开始放那个video进去的时候, 结果发现omygod那个video的file我那个edit 的programme竟然开不到! 真的是omygod! 之后我又上网下载了另一个programme, 这个终于可以放进去了, 结果我就试下save先, 然后save的那个file那边改不到去mp4, 因为要upload去facebook要mp4的file, 结果这个programme又不能够, 我那时候真的要哭了.

而且那天晚上我跟kelly没有在她家吃晚餐, 我们5点多回到家, 然后大概6点多那样就去了kelly's baby的家吃晚餐, 因为她baby的妹妹生日, 然后我们6点多那样出门了, 然后回到家的时候就已经9点多快要10点, 我很担心做不做到, 因为之前还没有出门的时候我一直弄就一直有很多的问题.

之后回到家了, 我就继续弄那个video, kelly就在我隔壁, 跟我聊下天, 然后就陪我让我不要眼睡, 然后我不知道我到底试了多少个programme才把我们record的video rotate了, 然后改了它的format, 然后成功放进去跟我们的照片全部combine起来, 然后成功的save到, 然后upload上去facebook的时候是最紧张的, 因为kelly那时候已经很眼睡了, 我也是很眼睡了! 然后那个video upload的时候我们都等了差不多20分钟, 本来plan了是讲12点upload上去, 就是因为format那些一大堆东西弄到最后我们一点半才upload, 然后upload好了也差不多2点.

做video的时候很多很好笑的事情, 比如那个video的background music我们选择放what you waiting for, 然后我们做好了一个part, 我们就重新看回去, 然后kelly讲' 够了诶, 我听到要吐了!' 哈哈真的是要吐了, 我们大概重复听了超过40次有, 然后重复看那些照片也是看了不知道多少百次, 然后还有那个video, 我们看一次笑一次, 不知道为什么, 就觉得真的很好笑, 可能是因为我们在录的时候也是一直在笑, 所以看回去也是很好笑!

之后终于upload完了, 我们要睡觉之前, 我跟kelly还很bak chi的重复看了大概2次, 可是我们就是看不厌, 哈哈, 我问kelly如果是你, 你会感动ma? 她讲当然会啦! 希望keli也是会感动啦, 虽然里面是有一些以前很好笑的照片, 我们看回去以前拍的照片, 我跟kelly一起讲几vei哦, zomok我们以前会觉得这些照片好看的? 哈哈

之后我们刷牙洗脸, 然后聊下天, 大概3点那样就睡觉了.

September8

2011-09-06T21:36:00.000-07:00

今天我没有去学校, 因为昨天去打针了, 然后左手臂就肿了

昨天去打针的时候很紧张哦, 不知道为什么, 可能是很久没有打针了

我早上在学校跟晓赖讲, 我等下要去打针了, 她听了就笑笑

之后我们也忘记了, 直到放学了她载我回家, 到了家门口

我又突然想起我等下就要去打针了, 然后我就跟她讲

omyg我等下真的要去打针了, 然后她就笑我 TT

我一进到去clinic的时候, 好紧张好紧张, 医生就跟我聊下天

然后nurse就把针拿出来了, nurse也是看到我很紧张

她就叫我不要紧张, 她讲不痛的, 从小就听人家讲打针不痛的

结果也不是骗人的, 打针是痛的, 尤其是打完针的那个晚上

手臂就会硬硬的, 到了今天还是这样, 本来今天我要去学校的

可是还是不要去了, 因为今天有上体育, 所以还是不要去了

昨天医生帮我打针的时候, 她说我太瘦了, 本来那个针是要整枝针进到我的肉里面

可是她讲我太瘦了, 所以她也不敢把整枝针插进去 @@

下一次打针是在下一个月 TT

星期一收到了晓赖从kk买给我的手信, 本来我是叫她帮我买mng的衣服

可是她说她找不到, 所以就没关系了, 然后她就买了这个给我

其实这个不是拿来当做memo, 可是我就觉得拿来当memo也可以啦

所以现在我就把它拿来当做提醒我温习的小纸张

夹在brenda送给我的这个夹纸的板上

每一天温习的范围就写在不同的纸, 然后夹在不同的天

本来我是拿来夹我跟朋友的照片, 因为之前不知道可以夹什么

然后现在就开始进行我的final revision了, 所以就夹一下啦

提醒一下自己都好.

现在还剩下67天左右就spm, 然后trial的话就是34/35天那样

我也很担心, 照fukpak讲的那样如果一个科目花2天

9个科目就要花18天, 可是我一个科目是根本不可能花2天就温习完的

而且trial又这么靠近了, 35天我要温习完sejarah, science, maths, ekonomi, moral要背

我不知道我的时间够不够用, maths老师说如果trial我们做错了那些不应该错的题目

一题要correction100次! 我的天, 我很怕 TT

所以我现在真的要很有毅力的每天读书4个小时如果可以的话就温习更久

我已经做到了2天, 哈哈, 在温习的时候silent电话, 然后不上网

就只是在房间里面读书, 就只是这样

以前我是9点半睡觉, 这个星期开始我都是10点半才睡觉

希望我可以keep着到11月啦 huaiting ! :D

接下来这个是Charissa送的手信. Thanks!

那天跟Lavender一起去逛街

这个项链我一看到就很喜欢, 然后没有多想就把它买下来了

她也买了一个, 是heart shape的, 也是很漂亮

我终于去修剪了我的刘海, 我从假期的开始就说要去剪
讲讲讲到开学了才有时间去剪

我的blog我又换了背景, 换了字体颜色, 然后很多的gadget我都删除了
现在就只剩下twitter还有看运气那个
本来我以为我自己再也不会在这段期间修改我的blog的任何东西
结果不知道为什么昨天就很有mood去弄
我觉得我是傻了.
我觉得我真的应该不会再更改了, 至少都是要等到我考完试吧
换了这个我看到很喜欢, 之前那个我也是很喜欢
只不过, 我还是比较喜欢亮一点的背景
看到也觉得比较舒服? 我也不知道

k thnx bye :D

Us against the world

2011-09-06T01:56:00.000-07:00

[Nicky:]
Us against the world
Against the world
Us against the world
Against the world

[Shane:]
You and I, we’ve been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire
You and I, we still know how to talk
Know how to walk that wire

[Mark:]
Sometimes I feel like The world is against me
The sound of your voice, baby
That's what saves me
When we're together I feel so invincible

[Shane:]
Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

[Nicky:]
Us against the world
Against the world

[Mark:]
There’ll be days
We’ll be on different sides but
That doesn’t last too long
We find ways to get it on track
And know how to turn back on

[Shane:]
Sometimes I feel
I can’t keep it together
Then you hold me close
And you make it better
When I’m with you
I can feel so unbreakable

[Mark:]
Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

We’re not gonna break
Cause we both still believe
We know what we’ve got
And we’ve got what we need alright
We’re doing something right...

[Shane & Mark:]
Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

Us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Us against the world
Yeah it’s Us against the world, baby
Us against the world
Tonight

[Nicky:]
Us against the world
Against the world
Us against the world

Masak Masak Day

2011-09-04T03:43:00.000-07:00

这个是上个星期的活动, 上个星期五, 早上我没有去上课, 之后听说也是很多人没有去, 我也是有担心的, 之后算了吧都已经没有去了, 就不要再想了, 那天中午晓赖和ernest就飞去kk辩论比赛. 我那天下午就去了kelly家, 煮我们的午餐, 意大利面. 哈哈.

我们讲2点开始, 结果弄到来我们2点半才去到她的家, 然后就开始弄这个, 弄那个, 切这个切那个, 可是一开始他们全部都在忙, 我没有什么东西要做, 所以我就在隔壁等, 然后顺便拍下照片, 毕竟这个是我们的第一次, 一起住东西来吃. 真的是一个很special的回忆啦. 哈哈

哈哈, 其实讲认真做的话, 我觉得是没有多认真, 因为我讲拍照诶, 全部就会看过来. brenda跟qiqi就是在切水果, for我们饭后的. 哈哈.

之后kelly就在弄甜品, 我不知道叫什么, 可是很好吃一下. 在做的过程我们就一直嘴巴停不下来, 真的是人多意见也多一点. 吵到半死!

真

之后煮这个东西, kelly的妈妈讲20分钟就可以了, 结果我们蒸了差不多40分钟. 哈哈. 因为没有一个人有经验, 全部都讲怎样哦现在? 到底要怎样? 哈哈

他们都讲, 我妈妈在家要我做这种我都不做哦, 哈哈, 跟朋友就是不一样的.

之后要炸薯条, 没有一个人敢炸, 所以最后就我来, 其实我也是很怕, 可是全部人都不敢, 就还是我来啦, 我很喜欢这张照片, 我很长这样站, 用一只脚, 哈哈!

之后就到了最紧张的部分, 我们全部都担心会不会不好吃, 哈哈, 因为如果不好吃, 也是没有办法了, 我还没有吃午餐, 我已经很饿了, 这个酱汁其实是不难啦, 因为都可以讲是买现成的, 然后我们自己加肉, 还有一点蒜米, 葱那些. 哈哈哈, 然后煮好的时候, 要试味道的时候, 全部人也是很紧张! 然后米雪试先, 她就讲好吃哦, 真的好吃哦! 全部就开始等面煮好..

面就是qiqi还有brenda在弄, 哈哈kelly的男朋友就在隔壁看下看下, 然后他一定是觉得我们全部人吵到半死, 是真的, 我在那边拍照都觉得很吵啊啊啊啊啊啊啊, 可是这样才开心!哈哈

这个就是我们的午餐, 每个人都讲要吃多多, 结果还没有吃完, 都觉得开始饱了, 然后我们还有甜品, 然后还有水果跟龙眼. 真的那天吃了到晚上我回家都没有吃晚餐! 虽然看上去好像没有什么特别, 可是真的很好吃, 我现在看回去照片, 我都想念了=.=我们的下次是什么时候?

期待我们下次做一些不一样的食物来一起吃, 那种全部人在一起的感觉很好很棒, 虽然是很吵, 全部都像38, 可是朋友嘛都是这样!

September

2011-08-31T23:08:00.000-07:00

It's September, which mean SPM is super around the corner now :(
First, I pray for September to be good, I say this in every beginning of the month. But it doesn't work out I think, how sad :(
As what I tweeted last night, September no more emos no more shitssss !
September gogogogo !
And the next is, I got so many to blog, but right now Im doing school works. F* all those school works.
Wait me, I will be back soon. Very Soon. :)
Cheers!
kthxbye

2011-08-24T00:39:00.000-07:00

最近的生活都是在家, 很少出去, 有都是跟朋友出去打羽球, 最近又多了新的活动, 就是去游泳. 可是我不会游, 上个星期天, 约了晓赖还有Lavender一起去游泳, 她们两个都会游, 可是我不会. 所以我去是玩水而已. 然后再泳池里面有一个uncle, 那个uncle看到我一直不敢去泳池比较中间的地方, 他就问我你不会游泳啊? 我就讲是咯, 我的朋友都会我不会, 哈哈. 然后那个uncle就很funny, 他就讲小妹, 游泳不可以怕的, 你的朋友都很勇敢, 然后我们就在笑. 之后不知道那个uncle从哪里拿来了游泳初学者用的那片浮板, 他就借我, 他讲用这个学. 然后我们几个就一直觉得很好笑.

我们从4点半游到5点半, 然后冲了凉, 就回家了. 这个星期天也是照常去游泳, 很好玩哦, 我真是希望我能够学会游泳, 因为晓赖讲游泳很简单的.

以前都没有这么常出去运动, 下半年开始才有运动, 每个星期五打羽球. 在TBA. 每次打, 打一个小时就累到半死了, 然后满身大汗, 可是流汗的感觉很舒服, 尤其是之后回到家冲了凉, 就会感觉到毛孔都张开了再呼吸.

也是上个星期的事情, 因为星期五没有考试, 朋友就约我去yatch club, 大概4点半那样就到了yatch club, 我也是有一个多月没有去了, 上次去的时候是我朋友的生日. 其实我很喜欢去yatch club, 那边很舒服, 哈哈, 然后那天我们去的时候很安静, 没什么人, 所以我们就在那边聊下天, 玩一下ipad, 还有拍一下照片. 单眼相机拍出来的照片真的很漂亮, 有时候会想要买一架给自己, 可是觉得好大一个带出去很不方便. 我现在的这个相机, 拍出来的照片也是不错, 所以我看暂时来讲应该是不会去买啦, 能用就好, 等它不能用了我才再做考虑吧.

我喜欢单眼相机也是因为这种focus的感觉, 我不知道为什么就觉得很好看

我朋友那天教我玩一个game, The Smurfs. 哈哈, 很可爱哦. 那个电影也是要上映了, 9月一号上映!

这个是日落的时候, 朋友说那天的云很多之类的, 所以不是很漂亮.

自从晓赖买了HTC Sensation, 我就爱上了Nin Jump这个游戏, 那天朋友的ipad里面有, 我玩了好多次, 最后终于破了他的high score, 哈哈哈!! 很开心

最近的生活是无聊了一些, 从这篇post也可以看得出吧. 假期要来了, 没什么特别的心情, 因为晓赖还有ernest去kk比赛辩论, 我呢在这里度过这个小假期, 没什么特别的活动, 我觉得这个假期就是学校要好好让我们读书的时候了. 今天经过countdown board我看到剩下80天, 我吓到, 我还以为还有85天左右, 没想到那么快就剩下80天了, 所以假期回到学校上课的时候, 又一个10天不见了 :(

这篇文章送给我曾经执着爱过的一个人

2011-08-18T23:39:00.000-07:00

曾经我不可替代的全部离开了.

曾经我过分珍惜的男人失去了.

曾经我最怕失去的感情结束了.

他离开了我们结束了我失去了也不相信了.

怀念以前怀念原来怀念曾经

怀念以前的每一句我爱你

现在的每一句都是奢求

我知道你不可能再跟我说我爱你了

于是我明明很爱你可是连说爱你的勇气都没有

怀念原来你给我的每一次感动

我知道我现在做什么你都无动于衷了

以为你会回来可是你没有

直到你连个人说明都改了我才死心

怀念曾经你说过的每一个承诺

你说你跟我说过的话没有假的

每一句话我都当作承诺来听来记

我全相信也包括到最后你跟我说的那句不合适

可是呢你离开了以前我都记得你忘记了没有

你说让我相信你

你说永不终止的爱

你说你不可能放弃

你说心里只有我一个

你说你想好好的

你说你爱我千真万确

你说你喜欢和我一起憧憬未来

你说你在乎我你爱我

你说我的位置没人能替代

你说...

我说我爱你

可是后来你说了不合适你说了拜拜

曾经你是我不可替代的全部从未想过要分开

你给我写的每一个签名说过的每一句话我都记忆犹新印象深刻

我从一开始就下定决心可是还是结束了

我记得你跟我说过的每一句话。

我记得你说过你更需要我。

我记得你说过你就爱我。

我记得你说过谢谢让你遇见我。

我记得你说过媳妇咱俩不离不弃。

我记得你说过你会一直陪着我。

我记得你说过你爱我永不终止。

我记得你说过让我相信你。

我记得你说过亲爱的会一直在一起。

我记得你说过你不可能放弃我。

我记得你说过...

我记得你说过好多好多话。

每一句话我都印象深刻每一句话我都记得。

也记得最后的那句不合适。

为什么没有以后了因为不合适。

这句不合适我也当承诺傻傻的相信了。

因为我知道你不会骗我每一句话都是真的。

那也包括这句不合适这句拜拜。

可是过去的回不去。

回不去的就应该让它过去。

不怀念因为我会泪流满面

不怀念因为怀念也回不到从前

你知道么我很不愿意离开你可是还是和你说了再见

所以选择不打扰不相见不怀念

这篇文章送给我曾经执着爱过的一个人

到现在你依然不可替代可是不是全部了

因为我知道回不去了再爱你你也看不到你也不会接受

我喜欢你这是我对你说的最后一遍这次是真的

Exam Period

2011-08-16T23:30:00.000-07:00

Alright 我的考试也告一段落了我现在还剩下一张paper 华语作文

这次考试不是percubaan 好像只是算普通的小考试而已

可是主课都是要做full set 只有ekonomi还有account是考一点

这次考试我没有像上次那样 study hard

很:( 这次考试就不知道为什么一点心情都没有

看到考试纸就觉得很sienz :(

下一次的考试就是percubaan了没有错的话好像是在10月

然后考完了过一下子就是真正的SPM

现在应该还剩下90天而已吧我不清楚我没有去算

学校的countdown board好像不知道有没有去更新的

多一下就变成80 then又变70

然后就剩下10. omygod 突然觉得不想那么快毕业

矛盾哦以前一直很想可是现在越来越靠近了

反而却不想了真的很sienz

我还没有开始我的温习我一直很怕不够时间

可是就是没有那个读书的心情

fukpak那天补习跟我们讲 :如果我是你们啊, 我从现在开始就是每天延迟一个小时睡觉了, 然后哪一个小时就拿来读书, 一天一个小时, 一个月就30个小时了:

听到这样我都.... 很想我自己真的可以这样

可是不知道为什么每次要开始温习的时候

就会开始这边看看那边看看然后过一下就一个小时过去了

可是完全没有读到什么东西.

很讨厌要温习因为不知道要从哪里开始

而且我也不知道要从什么科目开始

这次考试我早在前几天开始温习开始的科目是sejarah

结果考试也不是... speechless

而且这次考试还是有拿到tips 我不知道如果没有tips sejarah要怎样考.

很烦恼啊 !

而且现在就要开始决定到底毕业了要做什么了

fukpak讲 :如果我是你们, 我一定就是1月开学我就1月去读书

因为他讲读完书了多的是时间你可以休息

而且人休息久了心就会懒散

也是很sienz的啦我还是不懂怎样

那天回去巴中听了一个讲座about accounting的

然后晓赖就听到很开心因为她讲她以后就是accountant

她已经很肯定了以后就是要去念这个了

我不知道为什么我一直肯定不到不知道为什么那么难做决定

之后听完讲座就跟lavender还有vivian去去新开张的Liquid名亨吃午餐

那里的东西还不错水比较好喝然后service也很好.

之后午餐了她就来我家因为我家没人她家也没人

我们就在家看电视聊下天

This is my new necklace :D 一直都很想要做一个属于自己的项链, 然后那天在一个page看到他们可以帮我们做我们想要的款式, 自己设计的款式也可以, 所以我就自己设计了这个, 其实没什么特别, 只是用了2种不同的字体, 然后就把这个设计交给他们, 然后服务也很快, 大概1个星期就受到了, 之前我有一点担心会不会跟设计的有相差, 可是我一拿到的时候, 很满意 :D 这个是纯银的项链, for more details, click here : Honey Silver :

sorry for the hiatus

2011-08-05T23:02:00.000-07:00

One day I'll be standing right next to you
Nothing would ever come between us

Thanks to Ernest. This is the song that I keep repeated these few days, no why, I just love this song so much. Exam is coming, next Monday, and today is Saturday butIjuststudyalittlebitonly Im so scare. butIstillbloggingathere =.= FML SPM is like 99days something like that to go. nervouslah omg.

*bye off now

17th Birthday.

2011-07-26T04:47:00.000-07:00

Yes! It's my birthday :) 又一年过去了, 又到了我生日. 到了自己的生日, 才发现一年就这样过去了, 每次都会想起去年的生日. 很开心, 去年和今年的生日, 我都过得很开心很开心, 去年跟今年的生日, 都是好朋友在身边陪我吃晚餐, 切蛋糕. 在我还没有生日之前, 我就跟她们讲, 今年我的生日, 我不管怎样, 你们一定要全部到齐来陪我过我的生日, 因为, 明年大家都要出去读书那些, 而且每个人的所在的地方也都不一样, 所以不能一起庆祝了. 所以今年我要大家一起. 可是Keli在kk, 不能一起庆祝.

今年的生日, 我坐在电脑前面过十二点, 第一年的生日是有过十二点, 哈哈, 以前都没有. 差不多11.45的时候就开始有朋友留言在我的wall, 然后接近十二点就受到了我第一封msg, 哈哈, from Syna. :) 然后整整12点, 就收到brenda的msg, 然后她就online, 然后就跟我还有KelvinHan一起skype. 然后今年收到warren的msg, 他在美国, before that他promise我, 生日他会text我讲生日快乐, 可是我觉得没什么可能. 可是之后还是收到了他的msg, 很开心.

第二天早上, 我起身躺在床上上网, 然后电话响, 就一个不认识的号码, 然后我一接起来, 就听到qiqi的声音, 就听到她讲生日快乐, 我就觉得很奇怪因为那时候才8点多, 也还没有下课. 然后她讲她们逃课出来打电话给我哇. 哈哈. 那通电话有qiqi, peifun, ckc, apple, 哈哈谢谢你们啦.

之后11点多的时候, 那时候她们应该在下课, 然后他们又打电话来, 这次就是kelly, kelvinhan还有brenda, 也是祝我生日快乐, 哈哈, 今年我真的很开心. 觉得我身边也是有很多的朋友.

今年在facebook的祝福超过200, 很开心! :)

晚上, 就去vedablu跟qiqi, brenda, michelle, kelly, 晓赖, 还有fanique一起吃个晚餐, 会选在vedablu因为那里比较舒服, 也比较少人, 所以如果我们讲话大声, 也没有关系. 哈哈

*1st self portrait

*我们全部. 7个人, 可是我2张照片. 哈哈

* Jngyingsia

*我很喜欢这张. 哈哈

*谢谢brenda妈妈做这个cake给我!

*Mygirls

*Thank you Ah fan :)

晓赖比较早就离开了, 我切完蛋糕她就离开了, 然后大概9点ah fan也离开了, 就剩下我们几个女生. 然后我们就开始用brenda的ipad来拍照, 拍了好多的照片, 哈哈, 好累啊, 很久很久都没有这样拍过照片了! 大家都很crazy, 哈哈尤其是9连拍, 每一张照片只有1秒得时间, 我们忙死了, 哈哈! 我们pose不够多, 所以很好笑, 整个vedablu只有我们的声音, 那些waiter看到我们一直在拍照, 都在笑我们! 哈哈! 可是久久才一次像这样! 没关系啦!

谢谢你们让我有一个这么开心, 这么难忘的生日! 爱你们哟!

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2011-07-20T00:05:00.000-07:00

如果某个男人主动替你拎包，把你放在道路的里边走，主动为你拉椅子，不要因此而感激涕零。这只能说明他之前有无数个女朋友教过他这一点。而能让他记住的女人，永远是改变了他的那个女人，而不是你。所以，越是细节完美的男人，对女人而言越是挑战。

吵架时为什么会大声？原因是，当两个人相互愤怒的时候，他们的心和心相距很远；为了填补这段距离，他们必须呼喊，这样彼此才能听到。他们越是愤怒，心和心距离则越是遥远，于是，他们只有越发强力呼喊，他们彼此才能听到。

其实美丽的故事都是没有结局的，只因为它没有结局所以才会美丽。这就像为什麽悲剧总是比喜剧更让人难忘，也就像人们总是找寻的真爱，却往往擦肩而去，不是这个时代远离了爱情，而是人们一开始就没有想过用一颗心去坚定的温暖另一颗心，不是爱情不再永恒，而是浮躁和易变的心！

热恋时，情侣们常感叹上辈子积了什么德；结婚后，夫妻们常怀疑上辈子造了什么孽。

爱情就像攥在手里的沙子，越刻意地攥得紧，流失得就越快！

生命中有一些人与我们擦肩了，却来不及遇见；遇见了，却来不及相识；相识了，却来不及熟悉；熟悉了，却还是要说再见。

感情.

2011-07-19T01:26:00.000-07:00

刚冲好凉, 觉得真的好舒服, 我从回到家就看电视.

到一个小时前才去冲凉. 现在冲好凉觉得整个人很轻松.

最近我都在忙看电视剧, 我现在在看犀利人妻

才刚开始而已, 现在才看到第5集, 等下我又要继续追下去了

本来没有打算要看, 只是听到ernest还有晓赖在讲他们在看

然后他们也讲很好看, 所以上个星期, 没有事情做

我就去风行找了犀利人妻, 然后就下载了10集来看.

结果看到大概第3集, 我就觉得很好看哦

我跟晓赖讲, 她就讲, 后面会更好看之类的.

她跟ernest都看到很后面了, ernest已经看完了.

我现在才看到维恩还有瑞凡, 他们两个刚在一起不久

然后谢安真开始发现她老公有一点点奇怪

我才刚开始看, 我看到维恩跟温瑞凡就很讨厌维恩了

晓赖讲越到后面, 你会越来越讨厌她. 我也是这么觉得.

小三就是这样, 一定会想尽办法的,

早早的时候一定说什么我不会破坏

如果你不会破坏, 你就不会跟他开始联络, 然后在一起了

我其实很讨厌小三, 应该不只有我讨厌啦, 应该每个人都讨厌

我妈就跟我讲, 有时候不能怪人家的, 人家也是想要有她自己的幸福

我听了很生气, 我不知道为什么, 我就觉得, 你应该要尊重别人的感

情, 不应该这样, 世界上那么多男人, 为什么你就是一定要他?

你为什么不能站在别人的那一边想想

如果换成是你, 你的感情里面出现小三, 你会怎样?

然后我妈又跟我讲啊, 感情这些事情, 一个巴掌是拍不响的

我也觉得很对一下拉, 我也不知道啦, 我是觉得这种事情可以避免的

我不知道啦, 这只是我的看法, 个人的看法而已.

最近, 身边有几个女生朋友都是感情有问题.

跟她们聊天的时候, 就觉得我之前也是这样.

可是现在我过了, 就好很多了, 那天才把一个不属于我的东西,

可是陪伴我很久的东西, 还给了它的主人, 是很不舍得.

因为毕竟也陪了我很多个月. 可是不还也不能, 因为这个东西,

毕竟不是我的. 不是你的, 就不是你的, 留在身边久了,

它也不可能会变成是你的. 所以就还了它了.

说回去朋友的感情问题, 我不能帮写什么

就只能听她们讲, 然后给一点我自己的意见.

很高兴的是, 她们还会听, 而不是跟我聊了天

然后我给了意见, 或则是说了一些难听的句子, 然后她们就生气

其中一个, 她感情的事情, 拖也几个月了

我一开始就在劝, 她没有要听, 我就只能跟她讲

你自己想清楚, 为什么要这样让自己伤心? 感情的事情不是只有你

一个人努力就够了的, 感情是要2个人一起努力的.

那时候她跟我说, 我很需要他, i can't live without him.

哈哈, 这句话, 我自己也是说了很多次, i can't live without him.

可是到最后, 现在我也是自己一个人活到很开心, 身边都是满满的朋

友. 还有好多的朋友在关心我, 我好开心. 好开心.

她那时候这样跟我讲, 我就跟她讲, 我知道你现在一定讲你不可以的

可是看拉, 时间真的是一个很好的证明, 时间会慢慢证明给你看

你可以的! 她不相信我. 知道最近, 她又找我聊起了.

她说时间真的可以.

我们才那么年轻, 有什么事情是过不去的?

网上的文章讲, 爱情是奢侈品, 可以有也可以没有.

是真的. 没有男朋友就活不下去了?

没有谁是没有了谁就不能活下去的.

如果在一起, 男生每次都爱理不理你, 这段感情要来做什么?

女朋友是要来疼的, 不是你想念她的时候, 就把她当成是宝.

过了一下子, 就把她当成是草. 这样的话, 在一起有什么用?

我就是这样跟我的朋友讲. 然后她们有听, 也做了分手的决定.

可是不是因为我讲的东西让他们分手的. 我不是坏人.

分手了, 现在一定伤心到要死掉, 这种感觉我也有过

伤心到晚上睡觉睡不好, 然后哭到吐. 哈哈

想回去, 我觉得我很蠢, 我只是失去了一个不爱我的人,

而他是失去了一个很爱他的人. 听起来应该是他比较可怜?

可是没办法.. 容易受伤的女人啊.

没有经历过, 就会觉得别人讲的都是废话

都不要去听, 到后来自己经历了, 才后悔, 为什么当初不要听别人怎

样讲. 人都是这样. 我也是, 你也是.

没有自己经历过, 就是不会懂.

sometimess

2011-07-09T03:03:00.001-07:00

最近发现我真的越来越懒惰写blog, 可能也是因为, 有些你想也想不到会发生的事情一直在发生, 然后越来越speechless. thanks, 终于7月了, 7月一开始, 我就很开心, 因为我要生日了! :) 这个月几乎整个月都有朋友的birthday party, 从第一个星期binbin的, 然后这个星期hanhan的, 然后下个星期另一个朋友的, 然后再下一个星期我的生日, 然后最后一个星期就好像没有. 满满活动的7月, 也好啦, 我也闷了很久. 结果一来就来这么多个. 7月真是一个好月!

那天babylai来看我的blog, 她讲我没有写到她, 哈哈, 她讲她失望. 哈哈, 要写出来有点奇怪, 因为我都是比较习惯面对面跟你讲, 我觉得这样比较好, 我们从3年纪就认识了, 然后3年纪同班到6年纪, 哇, 每次讲起以前啊, 你都讲你很讨厌我, 我以前也很讨厌你, 哈哈, 你讲我是一个很会耍心机的人, 你也不是, 你以前多讨人厌啊. 现在讲起来都会觉得很好笑. 然后上了中学, 我们没有念同一间中学, 然后也当然是没有联络, 大家都那么讨厌对方, 联络来做什么? 直到我去年转学了, 然后我是先认识Ernest豪豪, 他带我认识BELL, 然后去年我们也一起补习, 补account, 补国语, 然后慢慢的, 就越来越熟. 然后我觉得你变了很多很多, 我吓到, 因为以前, 我一直觉得你就是那种很泼辣的人, 结果现在, 每次有什么事情发生, 你跟我讲的时候, 我都觉得你为什么变成这样了? 变成很像很软弱了, 你也讲你觉得我也是有变了. 哈哈. 大家都长大了, 也变了. 有几次看到你哭, 我真的吓到, 以前我从来没有看过你哭, 因为你就是很坚强的, 什么事情都可以ok的, 不会哭的. 可是我一看到你哭的时候, 我真的不知道怎么办, 吓死我. 我每次很喜欢问你, 你觉得我们到了50岁还是不是朋友, 你每次都不想回答我, 然后我就会自己回答, 我们一定是朋友的. 哈哈. 连老师都讲我跟你们在一起, 我也改变了, 也变努力了, 每次考试之前温习的时候, 都是你会教一下我. 自从你考到车牌之后, 我们也比较常出去了. 其实去年的时候我没有想到我会跟你像现在那么好, 不知道为什么, 就觉得不会. 然后到现在, 我在学校最好的朋友就是你, 还有ernest豪豪, 虽然ernest每次很喜欢欺负我, 我的华语作文高分, 就讲我是偷照的, 然后走路的时候很喜欢推我大大力, 我也不知道他为什么要这样, 我有几次还很认真的问babylai, ernest是不是很讨厌我其实? 哈哈. 现在还剩下5个月左右而已, 我们一起努力吧!

still got lots of things I got to write, but I don't know how to write. Haha. And I got to prepare already :) Going to Youth Got Talent 2011 tonight, and also my dear Han's birthday party .

Love.

2011-07-03T03:59:00.000-07:00

你最爱的，往往没有选择你；最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。

　　其实，我很累了，我习惯假装坚强，习惯了一个人面对所有，我不知道自己到底想怎么样。有时候我可以很开心的和每个人说话，可以很放肆的，可是却没有人知道，那不过是伪装，很刻意的伪装；我可以让自己很快乐很快乐，可是却找不到快乐的源头，只是傻笑。

　　能够慢慢培养的不是爱情，而是习惯。能够随着时间得到的，不是感情而是感动。所以爱是一瞬间的礼物，有就有，没有就没有。但反过来说，爱和婚姻实际并不是一回事情，并不是所有的爱情都要结婚的，也不是所有婚姻都有爱情的。

　　遇见了心爱的人，可以说是幸运的，无论结局怎样，都可以说是幸福的。白头到老，固然很好，如果分手，或者为爱情伤心，也都很幸福，因为，毕竟爱过……

　　生活，是用来经营的，而不是用来计较的；感情，是用来维系的，而不是用来考验的；爱人，是用来疼爱的，而不是用来伤害的；金钱，是用来享受的，而不是用来衡量的；谎言，是用来击破的，而不是用来粉饰的；信任，是用来沉淀的，而不是用来挑战的。

　　不甘心只是朋友！很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了。一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去了。表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。然而你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友。

　　当你快乐的时候沙滩上有四行脚印；当你伤悲的时候沙滩上有两行脚印。因为当你快乐时我陪着你，当你悲伤的时候我背着你，所以你要快乐，否则我会很累。

　　有些事不愿发生，却不得不接受；有些人不可失去，却不得不放手。有时候，我们等的不是什么人、什么事，我们等的是时间，等时间，让自己改变。

　　有时候不是不懂，只是不想懂；有时候不是不知道，只是不想说出来；有时候不是不明白，而是明白了也不知道该怎么做，于是就保持了沉默。

　　两个人在一起久了，就象左手和右手，即使不再相爱也会选择相守，因为放弃这么多年的时光需要很大的勇气。也许生命中会出现你爱的人，但那终归是过客，你还是会牵着你的左手或者右手一直走下。幸福有时候真的与爱情无关。

　　不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有的就是最好的；不要认为还年轻可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的；不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情是可以和你一起坐火车的；不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，彼此鼓励可以让你们富足的；不要因为外人反对而放弃，幸福是靠自己内心来感受的。

　　那一瞬间，你终于发现，那曾深爱过的人，早在告别的那天，已消失在这个世界。心中的爱和思念，都只是属于自己曾经拥有过的纪念。我想，有些事情是可以遗忘的，有些事情是可以记念的，有些事情能够心甘情愿，有些事情一直无能为力，爱你是我的劫难。

　　其实不管你爱过多少人，不管你爱的多么快乐或痛苦，到最后你不是学会了怎样去爱而是学会了怎样爱自己。

　　人是无法在快乐中成长的。快乐使人肤浅，我们在痛苦中成长，蜕变才会更了解人生。

　　女孩子并不在乎你有没有钱，她在乎的是你会不会发奋努力改变现状；女孩子并不在乎与你一起生活会遇到困难，她在乎的是你会不会迎难而上；女孩子并不在乎你有多浪漫，她在乎的是能不能从生活的点滴中感受到你的爱；女孩子并不在乎你现在的境况如何，她在乎的是你能不能让她看到你们的未来……

　　我想，如果你有那么一点点喜欢我，就一点点，我也会有勇气去争取，可是我也不知道怎么去分辨，生怕，或许，我以为的表示也只是自己的自作多情，这样的自己就会显得那么的渺小而力不从心。当对某人放进了感情，那么在他面前，你就像个神经病，会惶恐，不安，患得患失……

　　没有过不去的事情，只有过不去的心情。确实是这样，很多事情我们之所以过不去是因为我们心里放不下，比如被欺骗了报复放不下，被讽刺了怨恨放不下，被批评了面子放不下。大部分人都只在乎事情本身并沉迷于事情带来的不愉快的心情。其实只要把心情变一下，世界就完全不同了。

　　男人对女人的伤害，不一定是他爱上了别人，而是在她有所期待的时候让她失望，在她脆弱的时候没有给她应有的安慰。

　　把自己当自己，此语最为重要。人生最大的敌人，不是别人，而是自己，战胜了自己，便攻无不克、战无不胜。把自己当自己，就是要求自己不要和自己过不去，别为一个小小的职位、一份微薄的报酬，甚至是他人一些闲言碎语，一个不屑的眼神而怒发冲冠，要以平静淡泊的心态去面对种种荣辱得失和情仇恩怨。

　　三件让人幸福的事情：有人爱，有事做，有所期待。有人爱，不仅仅是被人爱，而且有主动爱别人爱世界的能力；有事做，让每一天充实，事情没有大小，只有你爱不爱做；有所期待，生活就有希望，人不怕卑微，就怕失去希望，期待明天，期待阳光，人就会从卑微中站起来拥抱蓝天。

　　面对，不一定最难过。孤独，不一定不快乐。得到，不一定能长久。失去，不一定不再拥有。不要因为寂寞而错爱，不要因为错爱而寂寞一生。

　　不要评价别人容貌因为他不靠你吃饭，不要评价别人的德行因为你未必有他高尚，不要评价别人家庭因为那和你无关。总之，不要评价任何人哪怕是你的家人。

　　回不去的地方叫故乡，到不了的地方叫远方，多少人就这样，一直在路上。

　　人生有很多事，需要忍；人生有很多欲，需要忍；人生有很多情，需要忍；人生有很多苦，需要忍；人生有许多痛，需要忍；人生有很多话，需要忍。人生有很多气，需要忍。忍，有时是环境和机遇对人性的社会要求，有时则是心灵深处对人性魔邪的一种自律。

　　时间，让深的东西越来越深，让浅的东西越来越浅。看的淡一点，伤的就会少一点，时间过了，爱情淡了，也就散了。别等不该等的人，别伤不该伤的心。我们真的要过了很久很久，才能够明白，自己真正怀念的，到底是怎样的人，怎样的事。

　　不要等到了一个笑容，才面露慈善；不要等被爱了，才去爱；不要等到寂寞了，才明白朋友的价值；不要等到一份最好的工作，才要开始工作；不要等拥有许多，才开始分享；不要等别人受伤了，才乞求原谅；不要等分开了，才想到挽回。不要等待，因为，你不知道等待需要花费多少的时间。

　　不要乱花钱因为明天你就可能失业，不要趾高气扬因为明天你就可能失势，不要吹嘘爱情因为明天你就可能失恋，不要委屈自己因为明天你就可能死去。

　　这个世界上最残忍的一句话，不是对不起，也不是我恨你，而是，我们再也回不去。就是这样再简单不过的一句话，生生的将两个原本亲密的人隔为疏离。没有经历过的人，永远都不会明白，那是怎样的一种切肤之痛。

　　爱你的人，你不爱他；你爱的人，他不爱你；两情相悦，那么到底能不能在一起了？我想是可以的，因为世间必有真情在。

Every little thing in the past month

2011-06-29T23:55:00.000-07:00

Hello guys, 昨天本来打算要写blog了, 可是photo uploader有些问题, 所以就upload不到照片, 然后我就等到今天来写, 这篇post是要讲一下6月生下的两个星期里的every little things, 而且昨天是六月的最后一天, 也是上半年的最后一天, 要赶在昨天写可是结果写不到! 所以就到了今天才来写.

整个六月都是在跟他们一起出去, 再多2个星期, maymay还有keykey就要去读书了, 然后那时候想看也看不到她们了, 再多一个月, mingming也要走了, 很伤心哦, 他们全部都要走了, 明明讲我们明年新年才回来哦! tingting就十二月她说她会回来, 可是我十二月考试, 然后考完试就要去kl, 然后其实到现在还不确定到底要不要去kk, 机票已经买了, 虽然不贵, 可是还是不想浪费钱, 而且我也还没有去过kk, 当下买的时候, 心情兴奋到爆炸, 可是期待越大, 果真失望也越大, 好了, 不要提起往事. 过了就过了吧, 我....虽然想念, 可是有些事过于在乎反而让自己更加辛苦.

有谁年尾有去kk的跟我讲哦!

再过多1个月, 我就会短期内看不到你们了, 很伤心哦, 虽然认识也才2年, 可是真的很喜欢跟你们一起. 哈哈. 多几天我要跟你们见面了.

再来这个聚会我真的觉得很温馨, 哈哈, 真的是一个温馨的聚会. 可丽在上个星期天晚上回来这里, 然后我们全部, 去找她, 大家在酒店里面聊天, 然后很开心, 然后我觉得下一次大家再聚在一起又要等多久? 可丽也讲她短期里面不会回来, 也可能不要再回来了. 那天晚上在酒店陪她过夜, 我们聊天, 我第一次觉得原来The girl with all the smiles, isn't doing so well.

很多人都认同这句话哦, 我也是, 我觉得这句话很适合我, 一看到这句话是, 就觉得很刚哦, 听说表面上看起来每次笑嘻嘻的人, 其实心里她一点也不开心.

My friends say that Im so strong, and I wish I could tell them this, Im tired over trying, I'm tired over crying, Im smiling but inside Im dying.

darling, 期待我们下次再见面, 希望到时候看到的你, 就跟以前一样!

we must stay strong , and be tough！

Someone back in Sabah

2011-06-17T23:16:00.001-07:00

It's been so long, I didn't meet him! I think 3 months something. Guess who's that?

It's biu biu Koh :) 欢迎你回来这个温暖的小地方. 几个月不见, 还是那么帅. 星期天早上大概11.30左右那样到达斗湖, 然后他们去看戏, 之后check in酒店, 我大概5点才去酒店meet他们.

然后大家在里面准备, 冲凉的冲凉, 吃东西的吃东西, 然后大概8点, 我们就去Perdana吃我们的晚餐.晚餐之后, 就是在Hometown, 我们去到的时候还算很早, 所以人很少, 很像只有我们而已, 所以就一直唱歌, 唱了半个小时之后, 人慢慢开始多了, 然后那时候就大概是10多左右, 之后再唱多一两首歌, 就去下一歌round @Zenzi. 我提早离开了, 因为第二天早上还有补习.

当晚的照片没有很多.

kiatz这次回来, 我只有见到他一次, 因为还有一次是我家要庆祝母亲节, 所以那个晚上我没有join到他们. 这次之后, 应该要等到spm之后才能在见面了, 因为大家都要为考试准备了.

我一直要提一提关于考试成绩, 可是开学了一个星期, 我都没有时间, 每天online也只有一下子, check了东西, 然后就关了, 我这一个星期都真的很早睡觉, 9点, 我都吓到, 可是这么早睡觉还是一样, 第二天在学校还是会sleepy. 好了, 提一下我的考试成绩, 这次我考试真的有进步了, 很开心, 最开心的是我的moral, 因为真的是第一次这么高分, 80/100, 我去年也从来没有拿过这么高分, 我一拿到我考卷的时候, 我看到分数, 开心死了, 简直不敢相信, 啊哈哈!

接下来就是华语作文那里, 我之前考试写的时候真的觉得自己写到很烂, 而且我真的很早就写完了, 可是我的长篇作文的分数很让我惊讶, 我拿58/70, 我也从来没有拿过这么高分, 开心到我要flyyyy了, 真的很开心! 还有一个就是account, 我说我忘记做一题, 我真的很担心我的分数, 可是那天拿回考卷的时候, 看到我的分数, 我真的很开心哦, 至少也是及格了. 讲到account考卷, ErnestT的paper2 100/100!! 老师派考卷的时候有讲分数, 讲到他的分数的时候, 全班人, wahhhh, 他自己好像也是吓到.

他不止一个100分, 还有sejarah subjective那张, 也是100/100, 怎么会有这种人?昨天知道了排名, 很开心一下, 因为进步了, 可是有两颗科目的总分, 差一分就上一个gred了, 很希望老师可以快点派回考卷, 哪里知道老师有改错? 然后我就可以上一个gred. 讲到分数这个东西, 我的ekonomi考卷, 我一拿到的时候吓死我, 因为是59.5/100, 然后我自己再算多一次的时候, 算到69.5/100, 我以为我算错, 结果算多一次还是这样, 我不知道老师为什么算少了10分, 10分很严重哦, ramona的更严重, 老师算错大概有20多分, 从75那样算到去56.5/100, 幸好大家够细心, 有去算回, 不然这些分数拿不回来了.

另外, 这个星期就开始了sports的练习, 每个人都要回去学校练习, 一个星期两天, 星期二还有星期四, 今年的form5好像很乖, 因为每次上perhimpunan的时候老师都会报那些没有出席的人的名字, 从form3开始, 然后form4, 然后老师就讲form5的全员到齐, 哈哈. form5都很乖 :)

Song of the day . Right There

I'll be back

2011-06-16T22:18:00.000-07:00

It's a sunny day :)

去了一个朋友的家, 很喜欢他家的装修, 一切都很美. 在那里呆了2个小时左右, 坐在他家庭院的一个小亭子, 然后望上去的风景是那样. 没讲话的时候, 很安静, 可是很舒服, 周围都凉凉的

亭子的周围很多这样的紫色小花, 很漂亮, 很喜欢, 拍了很多次, 最后这张我很喜欢

可是在户外聊天, 蚊子就是很多..

sorry for the hiatus! I'll be back soon , very soon

#HappyThing

2011-06-08T01:51:00.000-07:00

plan to update my blog last few days, but really not in the mood, so everything postpone to today, and yeah, 4 outings in a post, so I think I won't write much thing, just show the photos, and another reason why I don't wanna write is I really don't know what to write, lack out of words in my mind :(

First, A Fan's birthday. @ Olive Bistro.

Hey, really long time no see yoo! Dinner at Olive, and after that sing K and cut cake session at Yatch Club. I didn't sing much, cause so much things happened that night, can't calm down myself. I just sing 最熟悉的陌生人 and 太傻. Haha, 最熟悉的陌生人's lyric really so nice and meaningful, suppa love that song. I missed lots of photo when Phan making wish, and blow the candle, blame my phone, I unlock bu dao that time!

2nd , With the Love Brenda.

er, I forgot when we hang out, I think is before holiday start, we lunch at Sakura Zen 1st, but Brenda didn't eat much, after lunch, then back my home and chill for awhile, and take a lots of photos of course :) This is what we always do :P

Yes, tell me we're cute :) Glad to have you around me, giving me so much support and always calm me down, and comfort me.

3rd, Day with cass jiejie, ming ming and also may may dear .

I texted ming ming early in the morning, and he didn't reply me at all, so I think we won't go out already, but then suddenly my phone rang, and he say, 'A sha 我们现在在你家外面了, 去载你啊'. I was like 什么? 开玩笑? then he say ya woh, faster eh, I didn't ready, and 匆匆忙忙 change my shirt and go out, on the way to kubota, I just found out that I forgor to bring my $$ . hahaha. We lunch at 唐人. After that went to eastern plaza accompany may may buy iphone casing, and then Relaxing cafe yam cha .

Finally, he got his license! See, he is driving !!!

4th. Another day, out w ming and may again :)

accompany mingming to take photo, then maymay to buy shirt, and after that kubota Taste Two for tea :)

This is so nice, but I forget the name >< hehe

This , Iced Coffee Pearl something, nice! make me insomnia after that :(

addicted to skype these few days. add me jing.ying.9423 :))

Dramatic Life

2011-06-05T23:14:00.000-07:00

being so emo recently, it's like emo everyday, I don't know what's going on with me, seriously.

told myself not to be like this, but why izzit so fucking hard one? I hate myself for being like this.

It's like, hello? that's non of your bussiness, why do you want to care so much?

and really feel so sick why people likes to being fake!

there's nobody even care what you feel, stop being stubborn jingying.

yesterday night, after pick up brenda's phone, i was like o my god, how could this happen?

why could this happen? why? and I feel like Im so dramatic. everything changed just in 1 second. after a 'hello, yes brend?"

I keep on scolding rude words, and keep on asking my friend, why? how come?

and he say, okay stop it, and close my fb, and ask me to sing.

Chat with kinda many friends after that, billion thanks to tingting seng N brenda :)

you 2 are really sweet, comfort me a lot, as what tingting seng say : you don't live for other peoples, you live for urself!

and it's not your fault, is those who don't even know how to appreciate what they've got.

and what I remembered the most is, someone can treat you like this, they definitely will treat others like this too.

I hope lah ha. imsobad. haha

got to prepare for tuition ed, bye :D

Spot something different ?

2011-06-01T06:15:00.001-07:00

Hello Hello :) Yeah, spot any different?

I just changed my background photo, and the 'I say' part, calender and I added a 'Today's Luck' there, hehe, can try try click click it, lol, see what's your luck today :) I know the chocolate color devil is ugly ._.

and now I think is time to change banner already, but I've really no idea :(

Tomorrow is Thursday, and I got my account class .

From 7.30am untill 12.00pm :(( Thursday and also Friday, two days, OMG .. don't feel like going, but you know lah, :(( and teacher say she might give back our exam paper 2 on tomorrow :( Okay, I am so gan jeong now, cause my previous post got talk about I didn't done my paper right :(

I finally watched KungFu Panda 2, PO is so cute, and especially when he is baby panda that time, omygod, feel like want to hug him!! Another part is when Po is talking w his dad about where he came from, and he dad's answer is you come from an egg, but don't ask me where's the egg come from, hahah, laugh like crazy!! and also when there's a little rabbit wanna buy dumpling, and the dumpling, wow, SUPAAA BIG! haha, can't stop laughing!

okay, if can download already, I definitely will download it and watch it again ! hehe

got to sleep now, goodnight everyone :) XOXO

想爱不能再爱

2011-05-28T00:40:00.000-07:00

你可能觉得难过

因为无论你对他怎么好他都不领情

他不是看不到

他只是装作看不到

或者他根本不想看到

你觉得自己很喜欢

他

甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢他

你用尽全力对他好

把他看得比自己还重要

有什么事情第一个就想到他

联系不到他的时候你担心他担心得快疯了

然而你有没有想过

这并不在你的责任无论是谁提的分手这段感情这样只会让你更加难以放弃一定要忍着

傻孩子。

忘了吧。所有你留恋的。你回忆的。你拥有过的。

那些。都已是记忆。

缺失并不可怕。

可怕的。是无法面对。

傻孩子。

你无法轻易忘记放弃。是因为你付出过。

付出了。他就会像柱子一样扎根在心。

不要去刻意逃避。刻意忘记。那只会让你更痛苦。

绕开这个柱子。寻找未来的幸福生活吧。

那里。有你的理想。

傻孩子。

开始新的习惯吧。

习惯。早上不再有人工闹铃。

习惯。每天一个人生活。

习惯。一个人过生日。一个人行走。

习惯。走过熟悉的路。面对熟悉的景。

你逃不掉。逃不掉的。

那么。就勇敢面对。现实。

现实是。他已离开。一切。画上了句点。

傻孩子。

勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧。

这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己。

这也是你。成长中的你。

这个你。正在逐渐死去。

新的你。即将重生。

找寻你的路。你的未来。

你知道的。所有的浩劫。都是成长的祭典。

做最好的自己。即使。一个人。

傻孩子。

好。好。尽情发泄吧。

剥开自己的心。用文字。用声音。用所有能发泄的方式。

泄完了。就要振作。

看吧。你失去的。其实微不足道。

还有那么多人关心着你。以不同的方式。

所以。你并不孤独。

正是这样的失去。让你看清现在所拥有的幸福。

傻孩子。

别哭。别再哭。

不值得。真的。不值得了。

把过去尘封吧。别委屈。别不甘心。别不接受。

开始新的旅程吧。去遇见新的风景。新的际遇。

做你该做的事吧。有很多事。等待着你完成呢。

傻孩子。所有的人都对你有信心。

所以。你也要充满信心。

你是坚强的。积极的。乐观的。洒脱的。

以前是。以后也会是。

总有一天。那个活力无穷傻气无尽的女金刚会复活。

傻孩子。

生活褪去了曾有的颜色。暂时宁静。

别沉沦在这片宁静里。那会毁掉你。

你要明白。虽然残忍。但这个决定。足够正确。

现在的生活。不是你想要的。

为了你的理想。你必须学会适时放弃。

给对方最好的关怀。就是。变得更好。更强大。更幸福。

ps : read this note at facebook, and this is so meaningful. those words I bold it up, because that's exactly my words, and I don't know why, it's almost 2 months, 2 months passed, but I didn't really feel any better, and I just became so weak so weak so weak, FML. Why I need to do so? Why? I disappointed everyone. yes, tears are rolling down my cheeks now =(

Dear blog

2011-05-26T02:44:00.000-07:00

好啦, 终于考完试了.

今天考华语, 华语作文写到很烂哦

一拿到题目的时候, 看到题目就觉得很难

本来打算要写'一场温馨的聚会', 可是头脑一片空白

根本不知道要写什么, 所以就选'感恩'

一开始写的时候还好, 还有去努力的想开头要怎么写

可是写完了第一段, 要开始第二段的时候, 就觉得很难写哦

觉得好像词穷还是什么, 一直想不到要用什么字来写

所以到最后, 就是想到什么就写什么, 基本上来讲可以是讲乱写

就每一段差不多到完的时候, 都会回到去感恩这个字

然后才开始新的一段.

这次考试的作文真的, 写到最烂的一次, 我不知道在乱写什么

而且我还很快就写完了.

前2次的考试, 都是写到将近考试时间完毕

这次考试, 我写完了, 然后看了一下手表

还有20分钟才考完试 TT 然后就左看右看

等时间过完了, 就交考卷

交了考卷之后, lala问我的作文内容写什么

因为我有个字不会写, 我就问她

lala问我内容写什么的时候, 我说我不想讲哦

太烂了我的作文, 我不知道我写的会不会离题

因为平时我都不会选这类型的题目来写

我都是选那些问方法, 还是问原因, 还是那些看法的题目

可是这次我想选的那些, 都我想不出个点, 所以也就没写了

是真的希望这次的作文不会离题

因为我写到每一段的最后的时候, 我都有尽量拉回去感恩

ernest说他的作文, 只是第一段有写到感恩而已

然后下一段开始就是在写故事

他最擅长就是写故事的啦, 每次就把我写进去

去年他的英文作文, 也是写我, 然后写我死掉

今年的英文作文也是写我, 写我是他好朋友

可是, 他把我写到很可怜哦

然后这次他讲他本来要写我, 可是他讲这次的作文是搞笑的

所以主角的名字是花花.

还有那天考Sivik, 不知道是哪一题需要签名的

他好像是签我的名字之类的, 因为要交考卷的时候

他把考卷举起来给我看, 可是我看不是很清楚.

他每次这样写我, 我真的是不知道那些老师对我的看法是怎样.

可能老师会以为我在生活中就是这样的性格

omygod!

考试也终于告一段落了, 明天还是有考试

只不过不重要啦, 可是分数是有算在总平均里面

而且明天的考试时间其实是10.30到11.30

可是, 明天依然要早早起身, 然后准时坐在课室里面上account

老师今天交代明天要带account的paper1

老师真勤劳啊! 很紧张, 因为明天改了paper1, 就可以知道对错多少

上完account之后就要坐在课室里面搞笑等时间到最后2节

才考试, 然后才真正算是进入假期

所以, 大半年就这样过了.

心情很复杂, 因为大半年这样过了, 代表时间就越来越少了

而且, 时间真的过到很快, 就这样, 不知不觉, 过了2个月了

这2个月嘛, 心情其实平伏了很多.

只是体重好像不怎么平伏, 因为一直起起落落

现在的体重好像是又掉下来了, 我也不懂为什么

3餐我照样吃, 可是有时候, 可能是想太多吧?

还有, 有时候也会莫名其妙的emo, 所以就搞成这样了

一直叫自己不要想太多, 朋友也劝说一切顺其自然

不要去想太多, 可是真的就是不知道为什么办不到

想太多, 好像是每个人都会这样哦?

有时候就真的是避免不了'想太多'

其实近2个月的文章

都不再透露自己的心事, 写blog对我来说好像没有意义了

不知道为什么会这样, 有时会怕说了太多

到最后, 伤的是自己, 所以, 开始学会什么都放在心上

自己的事情, 真的没有想要写出来, :(

每次就这样, 就开始emo了.

然后就不讲话, 一直看tumblr, twitter

然后一天reblog几十多张照片, 几十多段文字

我才发现, tumblr好像比较像是我写心事的地方

每每看到一张照片, 就会想起很多的事情

或则看到一些文字, 又会想起很多的事情

然后就这样, 就开始一直在想

只要一emo, 就会开始上tumblr

一直reblog reblog.

reblog到觉得很累了, 才停止

tumblr也好像成为了我的一部分

有时候, 有些心情, 就是怎么写, 也写不出来

可是一看到一些照片, 一些文字, 就觉得这个是我的心情

所以, 哈, 可能过不了多久, 就不在写blog了

没有啦, 还是会写啦, 写blog也写了4年了

今年第5年. 所以不会这么容易放弃, 还是会继续写下去 =)

因为有时候, 会自己看回去自己所写过的东西

哈哈, 看了也是什么样的心情都有!

24 May

2011-05-24T02:55:00.000-07:00

talk about today's exam

今天就考account

在考试的前一晚也就是昨天晚上

我很努力在找练习来做

今天早上去到学校也是有做了一题

先考试的是objective

所以还好只是有些文字题目不会做

ernest讲我错23题 =.=

没有咯不要讲到我这么差

之后就考下一张

想起来都有点伤心

前面3题是一定要做的

然后后面的3题就选两题来做

所以总共是要做5题

可是我只是做了4题 :((((

因为考试纸印到弄到我看到很乱

第3题跟第4题是在同一面

然后第4题的上面的就说在这里面选2题来做

我就粗心啊!! 然后就连第3题也一起算进去了

然后我昨晚4题之后

将近要交考卷的时候我转回头去问晓赖选了哪一题

她说没有选第4题

我才deng! lag了一下

然后再看回去就是OmygodWT*

我做少了一题可是已经没有时间了

才剩下大概3分钟的时间而已

uhh 还能够怎么办? 没有怎么办

就这样交了只有4题答案的答案卷上去

argh 我下次一定不会再这样了

下次不会再有下次

那一题总分是20分

虽然是说我不会拿满20分

可是我应该可以拿到10分吧?

omygod 10分已经很多了 TT

我当下deng!的时候我真的很想哭大大声哦

为什么会这样, 为什么会这样?

又不是第一次考试 .. :(

考试已经进入尾声了

现在只剩下华语

还要写作文啊!!

明天又是轻轻松松的考试

因为是考Sivik

最后一天考试的时间我不知道为什么要排在这样的时间

10.30-11.30 .. 为什么不在早上7.00-8.00?

这样我8点之后就可以享受假期生活了

今天放学回到家

我打开窗看见这样一个景象

Zoom In

应该觉得可怜

可是我觉得很奇怪为什么他们会死在那上面?

平时也看到很多小鸟在电线上面休息

这次是第一次看到有小鸟死在那里

One week to go !

2011-05-22T01:06:00.000-07:00

Another week passed =)

这个星期只安排到考一科科目

所以每天都在吃睡觉上网

除了有考试的那一天每一天都过得很开心

一点压力都没有 moral的definisi也是到了前一天下午才来背

幸好这次考试考得不多

所以前一天才来准备时间是够的

考试的当天还是很惯例的会忘记一些

可是还好大部分都ok

明天开始又是一连串的考试

连续考5天先是ekonomi接着是account然后是华语

还有另外剩下2科没什么重要

昨天才开始温习ekonomi

然后今天整个下午就在拼命的读

真的很怕读不完现在已经80% done了

还有剩下的就到晚上才来拼

现在真的很sleepy 很累很累

昨晚也睡不好就半夜一直起身

urgh..

pray hard for me myself !

XOXO .

Oh What a Week

2011-05-13T17:54:00.000-07:00

又是回来update的时候了!

很快很快一个星期就在天天考试中pass了

上个星期天, 买了新电话

终于啊之前T707其实是还能够用的

而且去买的时候我是没有打算买

因为去买的目的不是要买我的电话

是要买我妈的电话母亲节的礼物? 哈哈

然后去到店的时候我就在随便看看

然后看看下就突然看到了Nokia C3

就觉得有一点喜欢因为没有用过QWERTY keypad

所以就打算要买那架我一讲要买就买成了

就有一点开心哈哈然后现在T707就给我妈用

因为她说她还是比较喜欢开盖的电话

其实我的T707保养到很好很好

只是莫名其妙那个screen多了一个很大的点

弄到看东西有点不方便

New phone must cam cam yi xia :D

SpongeBob的theme很可爱啊!

我download了很多的theme, 我真的觉得太可爱了

而且很特别, 因为sonyericson的theme, 那些icon是不会变的

可是nokia的theme, 它的icon也会跟着变

提早庆祝Kelly的生日

下午2点半左右先跟Brenda去买生日礼物

因为已经知道要买什么了

所以很快的, 大概1个小时就买好了

然后就去Old Town White Coffee喝茶

等Brenda的mami还有等Stephy

我们去到的时候看到Stephy站在桌子上面等

看起来很可怜的样子

也是啦它从早上就去冲凉了然后冲好了

就等到整4点我们才去带它

之后就到Eastern Plaze去买Ipad II的cover

然后就回家等时间到6.30pm出门

我跟Brenda很早就出门了

到了Olive的时候还很少人

那天是母亲节的前一天很多人reserved桌子

所以一去到的时候看到的人没有很多

可能大家都是心里想reserved了不用怕没有位置啦

然后我们等另外的两位到

真的是有够慢 MiXue差不多7点半才到

之后就开始order吃的

然后大概吃到9点左右就吃完了

然后就到insomnia唱歌

真的是很久没有跟他们一起唱歌了

离上一次一起唱歌应该是去年一月在TRC

然后这次之后我觉得就应该又要等好久的一段时间

我们才再一起出去唱歌了 :(

开心的时间总是很快过

然后星期一就这样悄悄的来临了

也就是期末考的第一天.

在考试的前一天其实有拿到tips

所以有比较准备到

之后的英文, 数学, sejarah, 还有今天的科学

都是有tips 所以真的是幸好有tips

不然真的很难cover完全部的范围

我只有science一科, 算是真正有读完全部的bab

其他的都没有, 都是跟着tips来读

很难想象下次的考试如果没有tips了

不是read die me . lol.

补习老师都在讲剩下的时间不多

他讲他那年考spm的时候, 他从年头就开始温习了

很少人可以做到吧?

现在已经年中了, 考完试, 放假回来

就是新的学期的开始.

然后就开始进行trial exam, blah blah blah一大堆的考试

前天考完sejarah的时候

心真的松了很多很多我考sejarah的前一晚

本来是打算要努力一下可是做不到

所以9.30就去睡觉了

然后早上去到学校才略读一下

然后就开始考试也是很幸运哦

我都还ok 就勉强能够过关.

下个星期就可以算是很free的一个星期

因为只有一天有考试那天考moral

还有很多时间可以背definisi

然后再过一个星期就考ekonomi

所以其实现在没什么紧张因为老师也是有给tips

所以我也是照着读所以我还有时间 :)

我开始了我的英文补习哈哈

本来还在一直担心会有谁在补习

结果全部都是认识的脸孔所以就心情整个放松 =)

XOXO. Love

May

2011-05-04T02:19:00.000-07:00

上个星期天早上自己一个人在家

没有跟家人出去吃早餐

本来是不想弄东西吃可是电视刚好又在播放美食节目

整个就是在引诱我

最后真的觉得饿了才去找一点食物弄来吃

本来是想随便吃几片面包因为懒惰去开gas炉煮东西

可是当下又突然很想吃cheese sausage

多想有人帮我煮一煮然后我就看电视等着吃东西

想了这么多最后还不是要自己去弄早餐给自己吃

可怜一下 :(

然后弄弄弄了不知道多久应该是没有很久

因为sausage还有鸡蛋都是很容易的

放下去等熟就可以吃了

tada-!

sausage我吃了几个了一边在煎的时候

就一边吃 :)

看起来好像没有很好吃?

but 自己弄的怎样都是好吃的嘛 :)

自己一个人吃完早餐然后就继续看电视

然后上网然后就开始温习

我读了几天终于在昨天读完了form4的科学

希望今晚可以读完form5的2-3课

然后就要开始温习sejarah

kill me please . 我真的想去撞墙.

ernest lala 还有晓赖都已经快要读完sejaah了

他们先开始读sejarah. 我就先开始读science

因为讨厌sejarah. 虽然老师也已经给了范围

大概要注重那几课可是我就还是不想读

老师讲这次考试她要65分以上

不然就应该是要像上次那样留下来放学之后留下来恶补

ernest一听到老师讲65分才算pass

他就跟我讲 'har, 你要加油啊'

是真的, 我觉得这次我加油都不知道会不会拿到65分以上.

很紧张! 很紧张! Nervous !

最近都很少上线了是真的有少了

我都比较常在twitter逛来逛去

在twitter看到很多的东西都觉得很funny, 有些很meaningful.

反而facebook就比较少玩了

很多时候只是开着放在那边然后就download我的康熙来了

我的facebook wall 都是full of 我twitter的tweet

有时候开着facebook在那边也不知道要做什么

就开着啦晓赖讲我一天不上网会死

其实也没有啦我的兴趣就是上网

不然我在家真的好想没有什么特别的事情可以做了

看电视我又不是讲很喜欢看

有看的只是几个节目而已像连续剧就没有多看

以前会很迷然后每天要看

现在就没有了不知道为什么会这样.

所以就上网上网真的很多东西可以做

可以8一下别人的事情

不管自己的事情的有时候也会去看一下

女生就是这样 . 有些男生也是像女生一样8 . 哈哈

过多2个读书天 2个不是读书天

然后就考试了我现在还在这边写blog

haih 本来刚才要睡午觉可是躺了半个小时

还是睡不着然后就起身上网

结果一坐下来就做了差不多3个小时

真是没有定力本来是想讲完一下就好

大概1个小时可是每次就是停不下来 :( :(

好伤心哦每天早上经过办公室前面的那片倒数板

看到剩下198天就不开心. 因为从200不知道到多少天开始看

到现在剩下198days了 . 其实还有6个月

只不过 6个月里面减到一些假期

减掉一些'今天很累, 今天很懒, 今天不想读书'

就又好像没有剩下多少天了

(太夸张了?) 哈哈

我有补习的那一天我就不像读书.

一个星期在星期一到星期五我有补习2天

然后星期天早上有补习星期天就是一天想偷懒一下的一天.

我下个星期要开始我的英文补习了

我去年一整年没有补习今年其实也是不想要补的

可是我妈看到我好像每天在家晃来晃去

没有事情做有一个星期天早上补完习在回家的路途上

她就叫我去补习她讲在这剩下的几个月里面

努力一下考好一点 TT 听到的时候有一点伤心

因为其实我很懒惰要去补习.

可是没有办法她叫到就一定要去

所以英文补习下个星期4开始

omygod 下午补习到5点

然后晚上7.30开始补习. 真的是伤心哦 :(

but今年都最后一年了就过了今年, 明年想要都可能没有了

那天才跟lala还有晓赖聊到明年一月3号开学

然后突然想起我们明年都不用开学了 o.O =)

很开心哦没有想到时间过这么快

我要离开我的中学生活了!

这两年真的好想过到特别的快.

form1-3都好像不觉得时间过这么快.

今年才觉得时间快现在已经5月了! :(

可是身边的事情很多都变了 :(

最近喜欢上了skype

一有时间就跟mingming玩skype

什么东西都聊很久没有跟他见面了

他要去考车牌了哈哈祝他成功! :)

wish you luck and all the best to you , my dear Bernard Ming

and接下来我要分享这个video

应该很多人看过了真的是一个很棒的video

相信里面所有的stages都是每个情侣都有经过的

经过了这些到最后两个人还能不能继续牵着手走下去?

两个人有缘分才能相识, 相知, 相爱.

珍惜彼此之间的缘分吧

不要等到错过了才来后悔.

在一起没有说什么浪费时间浪费这个浪费那个.

只要在一起的时候, 两个是开心的, 就够了.

and the next video I want to share is this ;

第一次看到是在facebook, 看到有朋友share

我看到一半看到那女的开始哭

我也跟着哭.

因为真的讲到太准了她真的把女生的心里话都讲出来了

我现在也不是很敢看回这个video

我怕看到一半又跟着那个女主角在哭

每次以为自己没事了以为自己okay了

结果看到类似的事情

才发现自己原来还是那个样子.

我以为

2011-04-29T23:40:00.000-07:00

这个video 我以为已经不见了因为在上几个月我把它在电脑里面删除了没有想到原来我之前在fb有放过我也忘记了这件事情
对不起, video是lock了.

Shit April.

2011-04-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

真可怜一个月下来这篇是我的第5篇文章

四月这个shit month终于要过去了

其实这个月讲真的过得很快很快

可能是每一天自己都一直在逼自己要做很多事情

所以才觉得时间过到很快

每天都在逼自己做一大堆东西下午不要睡午觉

然后做到晚上吃了晚餐就很累了

然后一躺下去就可以一觉到天亮

我现在很怕那种晚上睡不着的时候

真的很怕更怕晚上睡到一半会突然起身

然后再也睡不回去不然就是每半个小时

每一个小时都会醒来一次然后看时钟

我不想要再过这样的日子! 很辛苦

每次睡到一半会突然被一点点的声音吵醒

然后很没有安全感我讨厌这种日子了

可是谢谢现在这些日子已经过了

我现在好很多了

现在在尽量gain weight

现在剩下骨很丑肋骨都很明显可以看到

真的好丑

5月我希望 please真的真的please be better ok.

5月我差不多整个月都在考试

所以5月一定要很好!

Wednesday.

2011-04-20T06:09:00.000-07:00

今天星期三, 可是对我来说, 一个星期差不多就这样过去了.

因为明天是庆祝教师节, 然后星期五是good friday

所以都没有去上课.

算算一下日子, 又到了月尾了

也就是说离大考的时间越来越近了

今天拿到了这次考试的时间表

5月9号开始考考到接近5月尾 23/24号

如果没有记错的话

现在的心情其实很紧张. 真的很紧张很紧张.

我不知道怎么办.

那天听讲ernest读完了中四的sejarah?

不知道谁讲的, 然后问他的时候

他就讲没有啦, 也不知道是真是假

他也很常在讲骗话的.

去年我刚认识他的时候, 他跟我讲在canteen不能男女坐在一起

不然会被叫去辅导中心被辅导

我那时候真的是笨到去相信他

也不知道是被骗了多久, 才知道原来坐在一起是正常的

真的是笨哦我, 也不懂为什么可以傻成那个样子.

可是现在就变很聪明了, 不再这么容易相信他了

虽然有时候是还是会相信啦 .. ==

今天下午去看了辩论赛

去的目的其实是为了支持Ernest还有晓赖

然后觉得在家也是boring boring 所以就去学校看一下

这一去, 就一个下午的时间, 5.30才回到家.

回到家累哦, 然后头痛, 不想冲凉, 可是天气太热

冲了凉整个舒服到ta~

今天真是不开心的一天, 上体育, 玩篮球.

然后4个人一组, 就把篮球丢来丢去.

才玩一下子就满身大汗, 太阳太猛烈了

然后那时候才第4节而已, 后面还有5节课.

之后上科学, 今天做soap

在做的过程, 没有开风扇

然后整个过程热到ta~

一整天都很热很热, 很不开心!

真的很不开心.

ok la, 就byebye~ :)

17 April

2011-04-16T21:44:00.000-07:00

Daily Quote.

Sometimes I cant tell you how I really feel, not because I'm afraid, but its cause I can't even find the right words to make you understand.

Maybe it's not always about trying to fix something broken. Maybe it's about starting over and creating something better.

I miss the days when tying my shoes was the hardest thing to do, now it's learning how to smile when everything inside is telling me to cry.

If you don't accept the bad comments people honestly give about you. Then never expect to be better after the fails.

It's sad, how some people who were once so important in your life, became a complete stranger on the streets.